Start meaning what is fucking said
I can't get to sleep after laying in bed for I think has to have been 3 hours, that have felt like days. All kinds of shit is revolving around inside my head it's literally making me dizzy to the point I feel like puking. Insecurities abound in my mind and I feel like everyone I know has all gathered behind my back to form this big, ginormous "let's fuck Dustin over" propagandy. A conspiracy, if I will say. "Let's do this to him, let's do that to him, he won't even notice." Like as if I can't figure out a thing in the world. "It'll be fine, Dustin won't find out about it" I've had shit said to me with little or no meaning behind it, time and fucking time again. When I'm feeling something is going on or whatever, something really is going on. "Oh, but he's a nice guy, he'll forgive" For-fucking-give my ass! I only forgive once. If shit hit's the fan a second, or third time, whatever. I'm not going to forgive. I'm going to go about making sure someone or some group of peoples lives are fucked up to shambles.. So if someone even get's the idea of fucking me over, after it happening once, even by accident. I will make ones life a living fucking hell, and be god damn sure the person(s) face(s) are not to be seen in public ever again.
Now I'm off to try to sleep again.
Now I'm off to try to sleep again.