Somebody To Love
Title: Somebody To Love
Pairing: Malex & Others
Rating: PG-13 - NC-17
Summary: All Alex and Michael want to do is be together; but people keep getting in the way...
A/N: Based on an IM me and Georgia were doing last night... it was completely random, and each chapter is a surprise to me as it is to you... I hope you enjoy...
A/N 2: 30 chapters... 1 each day hopefully (:
Chapter 5
Michael walks home shaking. He had spent three hours at the police station. He told them that Ned had raped him. They had done a rape test, and took enough DNA to confirm what Michael had told them. He had given a statement and they told him that they were going to go and pick him up for questioning. Michael didn't want to hang around and watch it, so he had grabbed his coat and wondered home. He was scared of what he would find there. Would he see Alex getting ready for his date with Ned? He would die if he saw that. He opened the front door tentatively, the house is the same as he left it. He walks towards Alex's bedroom and pushes the door open slowly. He sighs when he sees Alex shaking in his bed, his clothes are the ones he was wearing in the shower. He can hear him crying from here. Michael walks closer to him, hoping that Alex is in too much of a state to notice how much he had been crying. He sits on the bed and pulls Alex into his arms. “Come on, lets get you out of these wet clothes, yeah?”
Alex sniffles and holds onto him tight, “You left.”
Michael picks him up and holds him in his lap, he winces, but he doesn't care about the pain he needs Alex close to him. “I'm back now, not going anywhere.”
Alex is trembling and holding onto him tight, his hands shaking as he grips Michael's shirt tight. “Where did you go?”
Michael bites his lip; he can't tell him. “You're safe, Shh it's okay. Stay...Don't go tonight, please.” Michael strokes his back softly.
“Wasn't going to.” Alex mumbles, sobbing into his chest. “Thought you left.”
Michael smiles softly at the answer, and holds him tighter, “Leave and go where?” He asks, kissing his forehead gently, he reaches up and starts to play with his hair.
If possible Alex clings to him tighter, “Thought you left for good.”
“Staying right here.” Michael promises, he kisses his forehead again. “Going to get you dry okay.” Alex nods his head slowly. Michael puts him down on the bed and reaches for a pair of pyjama bottoms. He kneels at the foot of the bed and tugs down Alex's trousers and runs his hands up and down his thighs trying to stop him from shaking. He puts the dry pair of bottoms on him, and pulls off his own shirt; knowing that Alex proffered wearing other peoples clothes when he was sad as the smell was a comfort to him. He doesn't think about the marks on his body, he just wants Alex to feel safe. He puts the top on him and kisses his cheek softly, letting his lips linger for a little while.
Alex stares at him when he pulls away, he grabs a top from the pile of clothes next to the bed and puts it on quickly. “You're hurt.”
Michael chews on his lip and pulls Alex back into his lap, resting him against his chest. “I'm okay.”
Alex shakes his head and wraps his arms around him. “I saw, you're all bruised.” Michael shrugs.
“I'm okay.” And starts to play with his hair.
The younger boy frowns, and stays holding onto him tight, moving his head a little; loving the feel of hands in his hair. “Are you sure?”
Michael nods, smiling softly. “I'm sure.” He rests his head against Alex's shoulder.
Alex smiles and takes Michael's hand in his and starts to play with his fingers, he sighs and snuggles against him. “Every thing's all fucked up.”
Michael sighs, “It'll be okay soon.”
“They wont. They're too fucked up.” Alex mumbles, shaking his head. Michael moves so he can hold him protectively, Alex looks up at him, large scared eyes. Michael hates that he looks so sad, he gently caresses his face and kisses his lips softly.
“Everything is going to be okay.” Michael says, he bites his lip when he feels Alex tense, he pulls away; his lips lingering. When Michael pulls back he sees that Alex has tears in his eyes, “Lexxie...What's wrong?”
After a few minutes Alex replies, “I've been thinking about your lips for so long.” Michael leans in close and wipes his eyes softly, kissing him again.
“You don't have to think any more.” Alex looks up at him, confused. “Be with me?” Michael asks, biting his lip.
Alex feels his heart skip a beat, he looks at Michael and smiles softly. “It's all I've ever wanted...but... what about Ned?”
Michael smiles and caresses his face. “Don't worry about Ned.”
Alex frowns, leaning against Michael's hand. “But he'll get angry.”
“He wont.” Michael leans down and kisses Alex's forehead.
If possible Alex scoots even closer to him. “He always gets angry.”
Michael holds him tight. “I swear this time he wont.”
Alex sighs and rests against his chest. “I miss you.”
“Not gone anywhere.” Michael kisses his forehead again.
“But you felt far away.” Alex mumbles.
“I was here, always. But...You... you were always with Ned.” Michael says quietly.
Alex bites his lip and looks down, “Seeing you hurt. You looked at me that night like I was the most precious thing in the world...then you didn't look at me at all.”
Michael sighs. “I'm sorry. It...You are the most precious thing in the world. I saw... You know that day when... After the lake: I went to end it with Georgia and... And I came out to my parents...I came back and saw you and Ned...You...Yeah.” Michael drifts off and bites his lip.
Alex looks up at him. “Didn't want to get with him. But you left me at the lake and I didn't know my way home. Jason wasn't answering, neither was Andrew. Phoned Ned and he picked me up. He... he made me feel okay. Wasn't numb around him. He...He promised me he would look after me, and he did...but he wasn't you.” Alex buries his face in Michael's neck and tries hard not to cry.
“I was supposed to be back before you woke... before we left. I left you a dozen notes around the house...I went back to the lake house and you weren't there. He... Lexxie he's not going to hurt you ever again.” Michael rocks him slowly.
Alex nods and holds onto him. “I didn't get any notes. I waited till it got dark, and then I got scared and...but he...He says I need him. Says he loves me and that I should be happy with that... and I was, because he loved me and he took me on dates, and he made me feel good, and I made him feel good. And I thought that that was what love was, and then he... with Jason... he didn't love me did he?”
Michael leans down and kisses his nose. “I did, Lexxie. I left notes every where. There was even one on your head. He's a slime ball Lexxie. Not going to let him touch you again. I'll take care of you. Treat you like the Prince you are.”
Alex giggles and rubs his nose over Michael's chest. “Didn't get them. Might have panicked a bit... thought you got eaten by the lake monsters or something.” Alex takes a deep breath. “He... He never did anything that I didn't want him to do.” Alex looks down; ashamed.
Michael smiles at him. “I tried phoning too. No signal.” He frowns at the rest of what Alex said and holds him tighter, “He... It doesn't matter what he did or didn't make you do.” Michael kisses his forehead once again.
Alex hums and draws patterns on his chest, “It doesn't?”
Michael caresses his face softly, “Not after... Did you ask for that?”
Alex leans into his touch; his eyes sad. “Not in so many words.”
“What... What do you mean?” Michael runs his thumb over his cheek softly.
Alex covers Michael's hand and holds it to his face, closing his eyes. “When I came home, and I was crying because i thought you regretted it. Jason was... Jason... And he...I told Ned, and he asked me how i felt... and i told him that it hurt, and that I was scared, but...Jason was happy, and that was okay... I don't like it when people aren't happy... and he said that if it makes me happy to make other people happy can I make him happy, he said that he'd make me happy too and that's all that mattered.”
Michael wipes his eyes slowly, “He didn't make you happy did he?” Alex shakes his head. “I'll tell you one thing though, I never regretted it. Could never regret it. It was the best night of my life. Would give anything to have that back again.”
Alex clings to him, “I see you...and us every time I close my eyes.”
“We should go back.” Michael says, “For longer, for more then a night, a week...however long you want.”
Alex looks up at him, smiling softly. “I loved it there. Wish we could stay there forever.”
“We can go there whenever you like. For however long you want.” Michael holds him tight.
“If we could do that then we'd never come back.” Alex sighs.
“We could...”
Alex looks up at him, happy. His mind going through everything they could do together before he falls back sad. “We can't.” He mumbles, shaking his head. “The band.”
Michael sighs and strokes his face and starts to play with his hair,”Every weekend...”
Alex nods. “And then we'd have to come back here.”
“Yeah... We would.” Michael sighs. Alex holds him tight, sighing. “We're here, and we're okay though. And we're always going to be. Get some rest yeah.”
“You wont go?”
“No. I wont go.” Michael says and kisses his forehead.