Goddamn life...
First things first...I suck with money. Those who know me well, know this well...I SUCK with money. It literally means nothing to me. So I spend it. Then, I don't have it to pay for what I owe, and my credit takes a huge fucking nosedive. I need help. seriously.
That being said. We had our apartment rented out from under us. The first day of my vacation, after spending a large sum of money on computer equipment and INSTALLING IT (so I can't take it back,) My apartment manager notifies me that while she wasn't there, the owner of the complex rented out all the apartments without renewed leases. MOTHERFUCKER!!!! sorry. I'm so pissed. I'm tired of it raining shit on me every sunny day. I get happy, I think I'm becoming financially sound, and boom, "God" sucker-punches me in the gonads. What I don't get is, I have good rental history here!
So now, the guy with the muy shitty credit rating must find a place to live. OOOh I really liked Paul's place. $670 later: "You'll know by tuesday whether we'll need an extra $650 deposit upon move-in (based on credit and rental history) and whether or not you'll even get the fucking place."
Things are much worse for so many people in this world, and I understand that this is a part of life, but I'm so tired of being punished for both my fuck-ups and my....uh non-fuck-ups, of which I have so few. I like interaction. I love people and the way that they act toward one another, be it hostile or friendly. I generally love people. However, when I see people living for personal monetary profit (if that IS even what this is about) without regard for other human life, it hurts. I know that I am learning from it, but it hurts really bad to see it anyway.
That sounds like a really big contradiction, but I'm sure you understand what it is that I'm saying. If not, fuck off.
Godddamn.
Sorry for the stint of not updating.
Love you all.
That being said. We had our apartment rented out from under us. The first day of my vacation, after spending a large sum of money on computer equipment and INSTALLING IT (so I can't take it back,) My apartment manager notifies me that while she wasn't there, the owner of the complex rented out all the apartments without renewed leases. MOTHERFUCKER!!!! sorry. I'm so pissed. I'm tired of it raining shit on me every sunny day. I get happy, I think I'm becoming financially sound, and boom, "God" sucker-punches me in the gonads. What I don't get is, I have good rental history here!
So now, the guy with the muy shitty credit rating must find a place to live. OOOh I really liked Paul's place. $670 later: "You'll know by tuesday whether we'll need an extra $650 deposit upon move-in (based on credit and rental history) and whether or not you'll even get the fucking place."
Things are much worse for so many people in this world, and I understand that this is a part of life, but I'm so tired of being punished for both my fuck-ups and my....uh non-fuck-ups, of which I have so few. I like interaction. I love people and the way that they act toward one another, be it hostile or friendly. I generally love people. However, when I see people living for personal monetary profit (if that IS even what this is about) without regard for other human life, it hurts. I know that I am learning from it, but it hurts really bad to see it anyway.
That sounds like a really big contradiction, but I'm sure you understand what it is that I'm saying. If not, fuck off.
Godddamn.
Sorry for the stint of not updating.
Love you all.