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So yeah,
It has come to my attention that while i was pretty messed up while still taking my wonderful anti-deoressent Wellbutrin, it has also become apparent that im not 100% without it. The answer? Well, likely, and intermediate medication, or, cuttin my dosage? IDK, and really i dont care.
Im prolly not going anywhere for Spring Break, and i might not be doing a vacation at all. See, me and mom had a time share and exchanged and got to travel every year. Well, since this will essentially be my last vacation for the next 10 yrs, cuz i sure as hell wont have money for it through college, or graduate school, or for the good 3-5 yrs after school when im paying my student loans off, i want to go somewhere where i know ill have a good time.
I want to go to Cape Cod, Mass. However, we cant get a time share there, so its lookin like we're gonna do a hotel thing or something. All i know is i tried to explain this to mom, and i also tried to explain how id like to do this in the summer, and not worry about immediate homework assignments or anything of that nature. She, again, decides to just pull up the subject of my unemployment. She has not tact. Ill be sitting, happy, laughing at the tv, or very busy. And she'll bring it up. Now, i know im much more mentally stable than i was a yr ago. But i mean, i cant handle that immediate shift in moods. And when im busy and pissed at homework or something, making me more pissed off, is not good. But anyways, she wants me to get a job and work all summer, but im just like, burnt out on the subject. I feel like im on a carnival ride and want to stop the ride. As one of my previous moods states, "Stop the Ride I wanna get off!" Its's kinda like that.
Only much more extreme right now.