fear takes over my life!!!!!!!!!!!
anonymous
March 21 2006, 15:19:54 UTC
IT ALL STATED WHEN I WAS IN 8TH GRADE. IT WAS AN ORDINARY DAY UNTIL THIS NEW GIRL CAME TO MY SCHOOL IN PLAINS,PA. AND FROM THEN ON MY LIFE CHANGED. A COUPLE OF THIS NEW GIRLS FRIENDS TOLD HER A WHOLE BUNCH OF LIES BECAUSE I LOVE THE BAND HIM. AND WORE THERE T- SHIRTS AND HOODIES AND ALWAYS LISTENED TO THE MUSIC. I WOULD ALWAYS TALK TO ONE OF MY FRIENDS BUT SHE DIDN'T WANT TO TALK TO ME ANYMORE. I ASKED HER WHY SHE TOLD ME FOR ONE WE DON'T LIKE GAY PEOPLE, OR GAY PEOPLE MUSIC AND FOR 2 WE DON'T LIKE PEOPLE WHO SLEEP WITH THERE BROTHERS. AND THAT IS NOT TRUE. I TRIED TO STOP THE RUMER BEFORE IT GOT AROUND BUT IT WAS TO LATE. NO ONE LIKED ME. IT GOT SO BAD THAT I STARTED DRUGS, CUTTING MYSELF, AND GETTING LOCKED UP. BUT IF IT WASN'T FOR HIM MUSIC TO BE AROUND I WOULDN'T BE HERE 2 DAY. THAT RUMOR SLOWED DOWN BUT PEOPL STILL BRING IT UP. I DON'T TALK TO ANY ONE BECAUSE THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT I WENT THREW. EVEN WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. I TOLD ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIEND WHAT HAPPENED TO ME WHEN I WAS YOUNGER THAT I GOT SEXUALLY ABUSED BY MY DAD AND I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST HER. BUT I WAS WRONG. PEOPLE MAKE FUN OF ME FOR IT. IT GOT SO BAD I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF IN MARCH OF 2004. I WAS 14 AT THE TIME. BUT I SURVIVED IT THANK GOD. AND THE ONLY REASON WHY IM WRITING THIS IS BECAUSE OF VILLE. HE DISERVES TO KNOW WHAT PEOPLE FEEL INSIDE. I BELIEVE VILLE CAN HELP PEOPLE. I WOULD LOVE TO BE BEST FRIENDS WITH VILLE VALO. HES MY IDOL. I LOOKUP TO HIM ALOT. EVERYTIME I TRY TO TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO LISTEN. I HAVE NO FRIENDS. I LOVE TO SKATEBOARD, SING DRAW, ACT AND I LOVE TO LISTEN TO HIM!!!!!! I DON'T LIKE PEOPL ALL THAT MUCH BUT MY DREAM GOAL IS TO MEET VILLE VALO AND BECOME FRIENDS. BUT I KNOW THAT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN LOVE JESSIKAH HARGRAVE. (203 LEHIGH ST W-B PA 18702
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