Jul 29, 2005 13:05
Life is a game. I've been told its not about who is winning or losing, if those terms can even apply to this game. The game in general has a negative connotation, and an elusive denotation. What is this game? When is it being played, or better yet, is it ever not being played?
If I said I hate the game, I think I would get a resounding "amen". But realistically I can't say that. The ups and downs and more importantly the mystery of it enthralls me.
But that’s beside the point.
The game holds me. Sometimes it’s in the dark of the night, alone in my bed when I feel embraced in the warmth of the game. Restless nights have been known to wrap the game around my neck. Nonetheless I sleep and wake with the game.
Sometimes the game doesn't just hold me, but rather holds me back. I declare the anonymity of the internet as my witness right here and now as I renounce the game.
I will no longer be held back by what the games tells me to do. I will say the words that need to be said to friends that need to hear it. I will no longer play coy, or hope for bonus points for every aloof moment. I will tell people I love them, and care for them. I will tell people they are hurting me and disrespecting me. I will listen to my heart to the fullest extent possible.
Friends and lovers get ready, the rules have just changed.