Head Full of Doubt/Road Full Of Promise
"...If you’re loved by someone, you’re never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it
There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out..."
(Avett Brothers)
I am starting a new job tomorrow. I believe the last time I blogged, I was going out on two interviews. Well, obviously one of them panned out, and it was the one that I was really interested in. So, I am shifting gears a bit and doing academic advising full time, in a multiculturally focused 'advising community' in the liberal arts college at the U. I am excited to be working in a structured environment that directly serves students (and will be doing it full time, rather than half-time). I am excited about my new boss, Andrew, someone who actually came from the same office I am coming from, he also ran into issues with one of the VP's, so, I get a little kick out of that. A little extra f-you to my former bosses. He seems cool though, focused on providing leadership and management, pushing equity and diversity forward within the college and also being just honest and down to earth (plus, he swore during my interview, which I have to say is a little bad-ass). Plus, he is a black man, and my best bosses have always been black men, I'm hoping he doesn't break my streak of luck with this demographic.
In some ways, I had to swallow my pride and look forward to this new position, because it is definitely a lateral move (only like $200-300 more per year), and I had wanted my now past position to be a stepping stone, which it wasn't. It was hard to admit how much time I put into that office with no payoff. It's hard not to be angry about it, but I am just trying to learn from it instead of dwelling. This position is more of the job you take to get to the job you want. But, that's okay. I already have a training schedule for my first week, and will be taken out to lunch on my first day, and I feel that this bodes well. Things were so disorganized and unprofessional in my old job, this feels like a good change of pace for me, even if it is more work!
I took the past week off to relax and get my head together. I definitely got the relaxing in, I think I could have done more cleaning wise (I gave myself a goal of cleaning out the spare room closet that has always been a mess), but I got a little tanner, read some books, watched some tv, went to the gym at least once. So, it was good. Jer has been gone as well to "GenCon", so it the past few days have been an intentional 'introvert reboot'. So tonight, I finished cleaning up some things, smudged myself a little with sage, said a prayer to let go and move forward and gave some tobacco. Now I'm eating pasta, watching the Real Housewifes of New Jersey and drinking box wine. The good life, lol.
Decide what to be and go be it
There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out..."
(Avett Brothers)
I am starting a new job tomorrow. I believe the last time I blogged, I was going out on two interviews. Well, obviously one of them panned out, and it was the one that I was really interested in. So, I am shifting gears a bit and doing academic advising full time, in a multiculturally focused 'advising community' in the liberal arts college at the U. I am excited to be working in a structured environment that directly serves students (and will be doing it full time, rather than half-time). I am excited about my new boss, Andrew, someone who actually came from the same office I am coming from, he also ran into issues with one of the VP's, so, I get a little kick out of that. A little extra f-you to my former bosses. He seems cool though, focused on providing leadership and management, pushing equity and diversity forward within the college and also being just honest and down to earth (plus, he swore during my interview, which I have to say is a little bad-ass). Plus, he is a black man, and my best bosses have always been black men, I'm hoping he doesn't break my streak of luck with this demographic.
In some ways, I had to swallow my pride and look forward to this new position, because it is definitely a lateral move (only like $200-300 more per year), and I had wanted my now past position to be a stepping stone, which it wasn't. It was hard to admit how much time I put into that office with no payoff. It's hard not to be angry about it, but I am just trying to learn from it instead of dwelling. This position is more of the job you take to get to the job you want. But, that's okay. I already have a training schedule for my first week, and will be taken out to lunch on my first day, and I feel that this bodes well. Things were so disorganized and unprofessional in my old job, this feels like a good change of pace for me, even if it is more work!
I took the past week off to relax and get my head together. I definitely got the relaxing in, I think I could have done more cleaning wise (I gave myself a goal of cleaning out the spare room closet that has always been a mess), but I got a little tanner, read some books, watched some tv, went to the gym at least once. So, it was good. Jer has been gone as well to "GenCon", so it the past few days have been an intentional 'introvert reboot'. So tonight, I finished cleaning up some things, smudged myself a little with sage, said a prayer to let go and move forward and gave some tobacco. Now I'm eating pasta, watching the Real Housewifes of New Jersey and drinking box wine. The good life, lol.