Blah why I am always so unfocused.
I could get a lot more done at work if I actually worked instead of procrastinating and reading huffington post, then doing my work stuff last minute before I meet with my boss every week. Though if I did that, I'd probably have more work to do overall, but then again, given my work environment lately, maybe not.
I have been chatting with individual coworkers quite a bit recently, and we all seem to be feeling sort of the same. Our office has always been a pretty top-down kind of place (ironic, since we are the office for equity and diversity), but lately its been getting worse. We don't really work as a team on anything, maybe on small projects, but even with those, our bosses put the groups together for us, so people end up unhappy or worried that they weren't deemed worthy or whatever. Also it does make you a bit paranoid of what people are saying about you. For instance, I am the assistant to the chief of staff, and part of my job description when hired was to staff search committees for the office. Our communications director quit recently (which has caused a lot of stress too) and I'm not on the search committee to staff it, wasn't even asked. I am paranoid that I don't do well with search committees or something, but I've really only been on one. How can I get better if I don't ever staff them? Gah! A lot of it is also the assistant to the head of our office, she knows everything, and does most everything, or at least knows about what everyone is doing. She is staffing the search. She is also anal retentive, so now I think she is judging me unworthy. Also, I know that by staffing the committee, I do get some input on the position, though unofficial, and it would be nice to get a little clout like that once in awhile.
Ugh. Maybe we'll start a coup or something. Or just all start quitting in the next year. Yikes. Either way, it is nice to know you aren't the only one feeling this way. It's a start at least.
I have been chatting with individual coworkers quite a bit recently, and we all seem to be feeling sort of the same. Our office has always been a pretty top-down kind of place (ironic, since we are the office for equity and diversity), but lately its been getting worse. We don't really work as a team on anything, maybe on small projects, but even with those, our bosses put the groups together for us, so people end up unhappy or worried that they weren't deemed worthy or whatever. Also it does make you a bit paranoid of what people are saying about you. For instance, I am the assistant to the chief of staff, and part of my job description when hired was to staff search committees for the office. Our communications director quit recently (which has caused a lot of stress too) and I'm not on the search committee to staff it, wasn't even asked. I am paranoid that I don't do well with search committees or something, but I've really only been on one. How can I get better if I don't ever staff them? Gah! A lot of it is also the assistant to the head of our office, she knows everything, and does most everything, or at least knows about what everyone is doing. She is staffing the search. She is also anal retentive, so now I think she is judging me unworthy. Also, I know that by staffing the committee, I do get some input on the position, though unofficial, and it would be nice to get a little clout like that once in awhile.
Ugh. Maybe we'll start a coup or something. Or just all start quitting in the next year. Yikes. Either way, it is nice to know you aren't the only one feeling this way. It's a start at least.