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So I went up to visit and everyone was beautiful and social and friendly and then for some ridiculous reason all I could think about was, "Wow... I can't even compete with this." It sounds ridiculous but one of my first reactions was that I would be a complete nobody at that school, and then I was terrified that my best friend was realizing that. and it is so ridiculous for me to think that way but I can't stop it. I still really care, and I haven't found anyone that I think is better. And everyone would think I was ridiculous for still hanging on. I guess kathryn knows now though, because you still read this.