Go big or go home!
I am going to miss that place and those people so terribly. Those people were the first to treat me like an equal individual and not a young niave teenager, it was one of the few places that i got to be me and voice my own opinions and concerns with out feeling like an idiot. It is sad to say but that job gave me purpose and sometimes it was one of the only things that got me through the day when things got rough. What other 18 year old can say that their whole heart and soul was in their job and they get to make a difference everyday, but mistakes were made and I was the one who took the blame so I am the one who gets the blame. The worst part is i have disappointed people who put a lot of faith and trust into me. I do not know what i am going to do tomorrow morning when i wake up realizing that it was not all a night mare and i really no longer get to do the one thing that i love so much. It just sucks that 5 minutes wipes out a year and a half, i am going to miss my kids and i do not know how i am going to have to walk into the classroom tomorrow and have to tell them that i wont be there anymore and what do i say when they ask why, I thought i have felt heartbreak before but nothing can compare to this. I am absolutly devastated, not because i am with out a job, because i am with out my purpose now. It just sucks because my heart really was in the right place, but that doesn' t matter. I better get to bed so i can wake up and face the music....