sick and tired of trying
I was free
I was out
I hated him
I was happy
but here I am trampled again for the millionth time. I am angry that he is gone and he left me here to fix what he broke. Its not fair that he gets to leave and be free from all this and i am stuck here missing him. This is never going to be able to work because I am not strong enough. I cant base my life on a maybe or a "lets see how it goes". I need definite plan, something solid to stand on. I know we are young and it is stupid to make such a serious commitment but i have poured close to 5 years of my life into this relationship and play time is over, especially now that all our relationship is a waiting game. If I am going to wait I need to know that there is something worth waiting for.
I was out
I hated him
I was happy
but here I am trampled again for the millionth time. I am angry that he is gone and he left me here to fix what he broke. Its not fair that he gets to leave and be free from all this and i am stuck here missing him. This is never going to be able to work because I am not strong enough. I cant base my life on a maybe or a "lets see how it goes". I need definite plan, something solid to stand on. I know we are young and it is stupid to make such a serious commitment but i have poured close to 5 years of my life into this relationship and play time is over, especially now that all our relationship is a waiting game. If I am going to wait I need to know that there is something worth waiting for.