Jun 11, 2006 00:03
I need to say this to different people who won't be named. Guess who? Think of it as a really fucked up meme. Actually, some of these people aren't even on my f-list.
1. I used to think that I could tell you something in confidence. I realized that, while she is your girlfriend, I am not your friend. I didn't think it had to be that way, but I am naive. (Even though you don't have enough relationships to establish a pattern) You just never really wanted much to do with me when you were in a relationship anyway. To you I was(am?) just entertainment while you're single.
2. I love you. I miss you as soon as you close my front door. I listen to your car start up, and my rib cage curls in farther.
3. You are beautiful. I wish we could switch shapes, sometimes.
4. I feel guilty about that night in the theatre. It was long ago, but I still feel bad. I'm glad that I'm just a blip in your love-life, since that means I don't have much to feel guilty for.
5. I still feel bad about your mom and how I ended it. I didn't know what I was doing and wish things at every step had gone better. I know you're doing well now and you may not care, but I always hope you forgive me.
6. You're really important to me. Sometimes all I really want is knowing that we stand in the same place, since as far as I know I could vanish and it wouldn't matter.
7. I miss you. You're the only ex I'm on good terms with, but I never see you. You always gave me good advice. Thanks.
vent,
rant,
anonymous,
meme