update on me being a fucking moron
So I'm takin' the fall for the vodka or "distilled spirits." That's a $500 fine and a much slimmer bank account. Rachel and Bailey said if they got off light they'd help out, but *shrug*.
Rachel's so mad at me for speaking last night I wouldn't expect her to, I mean I still feel bad about what I said. I never really learned to apologize affectively.
All those coulda woulda shoulda's.
Other than having a record, I'm also a bit pissed with myself over the money since I'd finally gotten my bank account to somewhere decent and now I did something stupid to deserve a huge ass fine. Now I get to start all over with nothing to show for it. So now I really will need that second job I wanted to take this summer since I have shit like books to pay for. And Mom will probably be pissed with me and disappointed and I'll have to pay for more shit to show that I'm "responsible." I mean Bailey and Rachel did offer to help out but at the same time, I can't expect them to pay me, yknow? Cos well, they really don't have to so I'm just gonna plan on me taking the full fall and if they help out wonderful and if they don't then I'm not gonna hold it against anyone since they really don't have to do that in the first place.
I feel like I won't be able to be an RA now or whatever. Especially since Trajan was the one who searched through everything.
I'm the biggest idiot.
Rachel's so mad at me for speaking last night I wouldn't expect her to, I mean I still feel bad about what I said. I never really learned to apologize affectively.
All those coulda woulda shoulda's.
Other than having a record, I'm also a bit pissed with myself over the money since I'd finally gotten my bank account to somewhere decent and now I did something stupid to deserve a huge ass fine. Now I get to start all over with nothing to show for it. So now I really will need that second job I wanted to take this summer since I have shit like books to pay for. And Mom will probably be pissed with me and disappointed and I'll have to pay for more shit to show that I'm "responsible." I mean Bailey and Rachel did offer to help out but at the same time, I can't expect them to pay me, yknow? Cos well, they really don't have to so I'm just gonna plan on me taking the full fall and if they help out wonderful and if they don't then I'm not gonna hold it against anyone since they really don't have to do that in the first place.
I feel like I won't be able to be an RA now or whatever. Especially since Trajan was the one who searched through everything.
I'm the biggest idiot.