my thoughts on a problem

Apr 21, 2006 23:28

Everyone wants to be needed, to be essential. I don't think anyone really wants to be needy, not deep down. Maybe superficially, if they seem to always get what they want they might become that and use it but no one really wants to be that.

I'm really tired with America's immature fascination with independence. It's not a bad thing, but at some point it becomes anti-social not in the pathological sense, but the egotistical sense, the elitist sense.

That's all you really need to separate yourself from someone. Your independence. I used to really value the wrong type of independence. When some people think of independence they only think of themselves, "what can i do/say/think?"

Lately I've been quasi-consumed with some idea I can't even name. It's not just about community and it's not just about the individual. I would call it a distorted sense of family but I guess that's just the inner-dysfunctional-kid talking.

It's so interwoven into the fabric of our society that it interferes with relationships. People break up because they're not used to depending on someone that much, for something that matters that much. Depending on fallible human beings? Well what if something goes wrong? You work it out. Work? Bah.

Maybe it's work ethic. All that puritan bullshit and all we got in America is more heart disease and divorce. If we really loved work, we'd actually care about each other.

There's another thing. People in America like to forget context. A lot of white people like to forget context too. It suits many needs, like forgetting the context of being a minority in the United States and all the shit that gets you fucked over, like harassment, property steering, [insert type of discrimination here]. Forgetting the context of what being a woman in America is like. It just doesn't matter, it magically disappeared.

Ah, I've found it. I want us all to be whole.

Now that I've found a small answer, I'll go to bed.

independence, whole, vent, rant

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