I ate way too much today.
Erin's entry makes me want meaningful sex.
or does it just make me want to get laid period...
I really want to have sex and no matter how long or great it is just be content having shared that...we'll call it a "connection" together. I don't want to have sex again until I'm sure that's going to be the results. Though, I crave the cock...ooooh no! :-\ DAMN IT! hahahahaha
I felt really shitty today. Not in a bad mood or anything...just unwanted and ugly and all day I kept thinking about dying and what would happen if i weren't there (it wasn't much different). It was wierd. But I was in a good mood for the majority of the day. Tomorrow is valentine's day. I'm so ready for it but I have a bad feeling about it. I'm scared. I'm almost finished with Tyler's present. I'm pretty sure he didn't do anything special for me but I really don't care because I'm so excited for what I made him and it should be an awesome day together. oooh such excitment!! I want to look perfect...but I know that isn't going to happen. I stayed up til 2:30 last night. I need to stay up really late to make his cookies...and then I have to wake up at 7:45 and watch my sister....and then I have to do a bunch of shit to get ready all morning and I'm going to be worn out. And it's going to snow tonight..so its going to be hella cold tomorrow so I can't wear the dress I wanted to or else I'll freeze my fucking ass off. Katy is supposed to spend the night with me tonight. I'mso tired tho Im afraid I'll fall asleep and she won't be able to. I hope she still will tho. We didnt hang out barely any this week :( I miss it. It's my fault tho. I guess I hang out with Tyler too much. But I think both of us are going to spread our time out more evenly from now on... I'm going to work on it anyway. I don't understand how he actually can stand me for such long periods of time. I always thought I would get pretty irritating if you saw me every day. ooooh but I <3 him so. I get butterflies thinking about it :D I hope he likes his present. I think I would go crazy if he didn't. I'm actually waiting for him to call me cuz he said he was coming over..that was about an hour and a half ago tho... I can't work on shit if he won't tell me if he's coming or not. My luck he'll call right when i put shit in the oven. fuck it. He should have called me sooner. I'm in a bad mood now. I'm going to go bake. I guess if he calls he can't come over
and i know no one cares about my thought processes (^) for this evening. Please forgive me and have a wonderful valentine's day with love from me to you!
or does it just make me want to get laid period...
I really want to have sex and no matter how long or great it is just be content having shared that...we'll call it a "connection" together. I don't want to have sex again until I'm sure that's going to be the results. Though, I crave the cock...ooooh no! :-\ DAMN IT! hahahahaha
I felt really shitty today. Not in a bad mood or anything...just unwanted and ugly and all day I kept thinking about dying and what would happen if i weren't there (it wasn't much different). It was wierd. But I was in a good mood for the majority of the day. Tomorrow is valentine's day. I'm so ready for it but I have a bad feeling about it. I'm scared. I'm almost finished with Tyler's present. I'm pretty sure he didn't do anything special for me but I really don't care because I'm so excited for what I made him and it should be an awesome day together. oooh such excitment!! I want to look perfect...but I know that isn't going to happen. I stayed up til 2:30 last night. I need to stay up really late to make his cookies...and then I have to wake up at 7:45 and watch my sister....and then I have to do a bunch of shit to get ready all morning and I'm going to be worn out. And it's going to snow tonight..so its going to be hella cold tomorrow so I can't wear the dress I wanted to or else I'll freeze my fucking ass off. Katy is supposed to spend the night with me tonight. I'mso tired tho Im afraid I'll fall asleep and she won't be able to. I hope she still will tho. We didnt hang out barely any this week :( I miss it. It's my fault tho. I guess I hang out with Tyler too much. But I think both of us are going to spread our time out more evenly from now on... I'm going to work on it anyway. I don't understand how he actually can stand me for such long periods of time. I always thought I would get pretty irritating if you saw me every day. ooooh but I <3 him so. I get butterflies thinking about it :D I hope he likes his present. I think I would go crazy if he didn't. I'm actually waiting for him to call me cuz he said he was coming over..that was about an hour and a half ago tho... I can't work on shit if he won't tell me if he's coming or not. My luck he'll call right when i put shit in the oven. fuck it. He should have called me sooner. I'm in a bad mood now. I'm going to go bake. I guess if he calls he can't come over
and i know no one cares about my thought processes (^) for this evening. Please forgive me and have a wonderful valentine's day with love from me to you!