time for a post....a real one.
what a day. what a night.
today: woke up mad early to be nice and install teresa's new stereo in her car B4 she woke up. didnt happened, she was all around pissed, and is not appreciative. but then i found out lisa was coming over tonite. thats good news. i spent the next 2 hours unclogging a vacumn hose. god did that SUCK, or well, no no it didnt suck per se, hence the problem :rolleyes:
then lisa came over tonite.
it was a weird nite. uncanny even. i havnt see her in SO long, like months, and here she is telling me her lifes story over the time i havnt seen her, and im sitting there thinking: when did this happen? i totally lost contact with her, and regret it highly. but as she was telling me of her almost stereotypical teen problems, i beacame distruaght. pissed even, at the fact that ill never be going to parties, never be drinking, i wont get into fights with ppl over dumb shit or important shit. teen melodrama passes me by with everyday. and its not that i can blame chaminade, cuz guys there live perfectly "normal" lives. i can blame my mother tho, as she is essentially the wall between me and reality. and lisa was tellling me about a party wednesday at my "friends" house. i had no clue. he didnt even TRY to invite me. asshole i guess, although i dont really even know why, so i suppose itd be unfair to be pissed. regardless, while everyone was having a normal healthy teenaged life, i was home alone bored off my ass, not even ALLOWED to go out. i guess in my tired boring ramblings im trying to find some meaning in it all. maybe someday soon....
Starlett232: i see it this way
Starlett232: God gives everyone certain colors when they are born
Yanx Rule 84: paint with colors
Yanx Rule 84: i know i know
Starlett232: so just do it
Yanx Rule 84: i think i got black, brown, and that puke green thats in some sets, u kno the ones with all the colors....
Yanx Rule 84: wtf do u paint with that?
i miss the friends i once had, and the ones i have no more. heck i miss the ones i have now
today: woke up mad early to be nice and install teresa's new stereo in her car B4 she woke up. didnt happened, she was all around pissed, and is not appreciative. but then i found out lisa was coming over tonite. thats good news. i spent the next 2 hours unclogging a vacumn hose. god did that SUCK, or well, no no it didnt suck per se, hence the problem :rolleyes:
then lisa came over tonite.
it was a weird nite. uncanny even. i havnt see her in SO long, like months, and here she is telling me her lifes story over the time i havnt seen her, and im sitting there thinking: when did this happen? i totally lost contact with her, and regret it highly. but as she was telling me of her almost stereotypical teen problems, i beacame distruaght. pissed even, at the fact that ill never be going to parties, never be drinking, i wont get into fights with ppl over dumb shit or important shit. teen melodrama passes me by with everyday. and its not that i can blame chaminade, cuz guys there live perfectly "normal" lives. i can blame my mother tho, as she is essentially the wall between me and reality. and lisa was tellling me about a party wednesday at my "friends" house. i had no clue. he didnt even TRY to invite me. asshole i guess, although i dont really even know why, so i suppose itd be unfair to be pissed. regardless, while everyone was having a normal healthy teenaged life, i was home alone bored off my ass, not even ALLOWED to go out. i guess in my tired boring ramblings im trying to find some meaning in it all. maybe someday soon....
Starlett232: i see it this way
Starlett232: God gives everyone certain colors when they are born
Yanx Rule 84: paint with colors
Yanx Rule 84: i know i know
Starlett232: so just do it
Yanx Rule 84: i think i got black, brown, and that puke green thats in some sets, u kno the ones with all the colors....
Yanx Rule 84: wtf do u paint with that?
i miss the friends i once had, and the ones i have no more. heck i miss the ones i have now