Bitches and hoes!
Sooo, it looks like my sister is gay!
That's all fine and dandy and anyone who knows me knows that it wouldn't bother me in the slightest and I'm happy for her, which I am.
But there is ways to go about things and there are some lines that should never be crossed and I don't care how fucking confused or anything you are, being an absolute bitch and trying to tear apart the lives of everyone around just isn't right.
Out of all my family (my mum is mostly excluded from this rant) and the lies, deception, betrayal, dislike etc that goes on, I always thought my sister was the one that I could trust completely, that she would tell me what she thought and not be like the others. I thought she was the one that I must like and I was so proud of that, and her. I guess that's why I'm not only confused by how she has been acting but am really hurt by it.
She has been married for like 17-18 years and has two teenage kids and she has been planning on leaving him but wants to set herself up first with a uni degree and such, fair enough... But if she is gonna go around behind his back then just stop it now before you break the whole family, including the kids :(
So in short, here is what happened: My brother's fiance became good friends with my sister (coz she wanted to become part of the family) and they are about the same age... She was having problems with my brother (a lot, coz he is a bit of an arsehole) and was confiding in my sister as a really close friend. My sister kept telling her to leave and sprouting crap about my brother being the devil and exactly like our father blah blah blah... Then when mum came back from visiting my brother and his family, my sister told his fiance that mum was saying all this crap about her being a terrible mother, the worst housekeeper, not good enough for her son, doesn't want her as part of the family etc etc all total loads of utter bullshit and completely fabricated lies from my sister just to make said fiance feel isolated from the rest of the family. Then when she went up there to visit our nephew, she refused to see my brother and instead was hitting on his fiance and trying to get her into bed... WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT TO THEIR LITTLE BROTHER THAT THEY USED TO CHANGED THE NAPPIES FOR!!! My brother has put me through a hell of a lot more grief then he ever put her through and I would never ever ever do something like that to him because its completely wrong and low!
Last week I was up there visiting and his fiance was telling me about it and how uncomfortable it made her feel and how my sister is still telling that she is in love with her and wants her etc! Hearing that my bastard sister made her freaking cry by continuously telling her that my mum hated her ripped my heart apart. I almost cried when she was telling me, thank god I had sunnies on, lol... When I went to bed that night though, I just cried my eyes out and couldn't stop, I finally find security with something in my family and its ripped out from underneath me once again!
If she has fallen in love with my brother's fiance, I can't blame her for that and I'm not mad at her, but I doubt it coz my sister is very selfish (and always has been) and just takes about how annoy she is, so I can't see her actually being in love, I think she just wants to experiment. Regardless though, you may not be able to control your feelings but you can control what you do about them and its just not right!
What I am most hurt/mad at though is all the complete lies she said about mum! All this time that she has been saying that shit, she has been going out for lunch with us and going shopping and be all loving (well, as much as she can) and in her head she is plotting ways to make mum look like a huge cow... I'm not talking to her now, she doesn't know I know (or mum) about this and she doesn't know I'm not talking to her, lol, but how can I? I have no idea what she thinks of me now and I know she will just ask me about my trip up there and regardless of what about how great I think my brother's fiance is (coz I do!) she will just tell her I've said some nasty shit! Not that she believes anything my sister says anymore, but it still must grate on her mind :( My sis already has told her that I said I would not go up and visit them unless she was coming with me (and she wasn't welcome) which is the total opposite seeing I already said I was going but it would have been nice if she came too coz I get shy.
FUCK! Maybe my sister is the one telling the truth and my bro's fiance made I all so I don't know what to think anymore... My family is just an utter mess as always and I just wish I knew where I stood with them :( I miss my sister that I thought I knew, I was becoming so close to her, which I've never had before coz of our age gap and I loved her so much and now I have no idea... I just wish she would stop stringing people along until i suits her and not be so manipulative... I'm scared for my niece and nephew (especially my niece) if/when they find out, I can't imagine they will be too impressed with their mother skimming behind their father's back while still living off his money from the two jobs he has to provide for her.
Its not even 1pm and now I'm all emotionally drained for the day, lol... oh well, life goes on!
That's all fine and dandy and anyone who knows me knows that it wouldn't bother me in the slightest and I'm happy for her, which I am.
But there is ways to go about things and there are some lines that should never be crossed and I don't care how fucking confused or anything you are, being an absolute bitch and trying to tear apart the lives of everyone around just isn't right.
Out of all my family (my mum is mostly excluded from this rant) and the lies, deception, betrayal, dislike etc that goes on, I always thought my sister was the one that I could trust completely, that she would tell me what she thought and not be like the others. I thought she was the one that I must like and I was so proud of that, and her. I guess that's why I'm not only confused by how she has been acting but am really hurt by it.
She has been married for like 17-18 years and has two teenage kids and she has been planning on leaving him but wants to set herself up first with a uni degree and such, fair enough... But if she is gonna go around behind his back then just stop it now before you break the whole family, including the kids :(
So in short, here is what happened: My brother's fiance became good friends with my sister (coz she wanted to become part of the family) and they are about the same age... She was having problems with my brother (a lot, coz he is a bit of an arsehole) and was confiding in my sister as a really close friend. My sister kept telling her to leave and sprouting crap about my brother being the devil and exactly like our father blah blah blah... Then when mum came back from visiting my brother and his family, my sister told his fiance that mum was saying all this crap about her being a terrible mother, the worst housekeeper, not good enough for her son, doesn't want her as part of the family etc etc all total loads of utter bullshit and completely fabricated lies from my sister just to make said fiance feel isolated from the rest of the family. Then when she went up there to visit our nephew, she refused to see my brother and instead was hitting on his fiance and trying to get her into bed... WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT TO THEIR LITTLE BROTHER THAT THEY USED TO CHANGED THE NAPPIES FOR!!! My brother has put me through a hell of a lot more grief then he ever put her through and I would never ever ever do something like that to him because its completely wrong and low!
Last week I was up there visiting and his fiance was telling me about it and how uncomfortable it made her feel and how my sister is still telling that she is in love with her and wants her etc! Hearing that my bastard sister made her freaking cry by continuously telling her that my mum hated her ripped my heart apart. I almost cried when she was telling me, thank god I had sunnies on, lol... When I went to bed that night though, I just cried my eyes out and couldn't stop, I finally find security with something in my family and its ripped out from underneath me once again!
If she has fallen in love with my brother's fiance, I can't blame her for that and I'm not mad at her, but I doubt it coz my sister is very selfish (and always has been) and just takes about how annoy she is, so I can't see her actually being in love, I think she just wants to experiment. Regardless though, you may not be able to control your feelings but you can control what you do about them and its just not right!
What I am most hurt/mad at though is all the complete lies she said about mum! All this time that she has been saying that shit, she has been going out for lunch with us and going shopping and be all loving (well, as much as she can) and in her head she is plotting ways to make mum look like a huge cow... I'm not talking to her now, she doesn't know I know (or mum) about this and she doesn't know I'm not talking to her, lol, but how can I? I have no idea what she thinks of me now and I know she will just ask me about my trip up there and regardless of what about how great I think my brother's fiance is (coz I do!) she will just tell her I've said some nasty shit! Not that she believes anything my sister says anymore, but it still must grate on her mind :( My sis already has told her that I said I would not go up and visit them unless she was coming with me (and she wasn't welcome) which is the total opposite seeing I already said I was going but it would have been nice if she came too coz I get shy.
FUCK! Maybe my sister is the one telling the truth and my bro's fiance made I all so I don't know what to think anymore... My family is just an utter mess as always and I just wish I knew where I stood with them :( I miss my sister that I thought I knew, I was becoming so close to her, which I've never had before coz of our age gap and I loved her so much and now I have no idea... I just wish she would stop stringing people along until i suits her and not be so manipulative... I'm scared for my niece and nephew (especially my niece) if/when they find out, I can't imagine they will be too impressed with their mother skimming behind their father's back while still living off his money from the two jobs he has to provide for her.
Its not even 1pm and now I'm all emotionally drained for the day, lol... oh well, life goes on!