You fucking clown . .
what up ? it's been forever .. and i kind of like it that way.
im bored as fuck. i hate the fact that when i break up with my boyfriend, i realize that i screwed all my other friends over for him. fuck head.
i need new people in my life. new boys especially, becuase i dont really like girls
i need to get out of my house. i've been here for about 24 hours now and i do believe i am going crazy.
im sick. it sucks. i wake up and i can't breath, so i use my inhaler.. then i have a cigarette. =)
i have skills usa tomorrow. im nervous, of course. im not going to be able to sleep tonight. thank god for nyquil :) i have to be at the school for 6, which means i have to leave by 5:30, which means i have to wake up at 5. jesus christ kill me :)
i've been so lazy and unmotivated lately. i havent cleaned any of my rooms in about a month, and they are total pig stys. maybe this weekend on saturday or sunday ill get around to it. there has just been a lot going on lately and its making me crazy.
when i get over this lovely illness, im buying a yoga tape. i could afford to loose a few pounds. and its fun as hell and relaxing. ah.. yoga.
there's a lot i need to do with myself, i just have no drive. where's aderall when i need it ? not here.
my mom stopped by office max today to get me an application, then they told her they were going out of business. lovely :)
maybe i can get a job at staples or something like that. i hope they dont piss test though, because im not going to stop smoking for a job that with the money i make, ill be buying weed. if that makes any sense at all..
i miss my damian darling. i can't wait until he gets out of jail. that poor, dumb fucker. its his fault, but i still feel bad for him. i want a letter from him to come tomorrow.
so hopefully jenn and i are going to the twist tomorrow night. if we can find someone else to drive, then we're getting drunk. if not, im going to ask her if she'd think it would be okay if we had a party waiting for john when he got home =) after all the stress of this week, i need nothing more than to drink a 12 pack with some good friends.. and get laid. jenn's been telling me about this cute friend john has.. hmm :)
i really want to play poker. i need a job so i can actually have poker tourneys in my basement, and kick some ass.
i would like to get high, but lack of weed, money, and ride is preventing that right now. oh well..
im so happy that ira and i hung out yesterday. as far as im concerned, everything is back to normal between he and i, minus us having a relationship. i like it a lot. he's a very good person <3
im going to go call him or jason. maybe ill update tomorrow after skills :)
toodaloo!
-tot
im bored as fuck. i hate the fact that when i break up with my boyfriend, i realize that i screwed all my other friends over for him. fuck head.
i need new people in my life. new boys especially, becuase i dont really like girls
i need to get out of my house. i've been here for about 24 hours now and i do believe i am going crazy.
im sick. it sucks. i wake up and i can't breath, so i use my inhaler.. then i have a cigarette. =)
i have skills usa tomorrow. im nervous, of course. im not going to be able to sleep tonight. thank god for nyquil :) i have to be at the school for 6, which means i have to leave by 5:30, which means i have to wake up at 5. jesus christ kill me :)
i've been so lazy and unmotivated lately. i havent cleaned any of my rooms in about a month, and they are total pig stys. maybe this weekend on saturday or sunday ill get around to it. there has just been a lot going on lately and its making me crazy.
when i get over this lovely illness, im buying a yoga tape. i could afford to loose a few pounds. and its fun as hell and relaxing. ah.. yoga.
there's a lot i need to do with myself, i just have no drive. where's aderall when i need it ? not here.
my mom stopped by office max today to get me an application, then they told her they were going out of business. lovely :)
maybe i can get a job at staples or something like that. i hope they dont piss test though, because im not going to stop smoking for a job that with the money i make, ill be buying weed. if that makes any sense at all..
i miss my damian darling. i can't wait until he gets out of jail. that poor, dumb fucker. its his fault, but i still feel bad for him. i want a letter from him to come tomorrow.
so hopefully jenn and i are going to the twist tomorrow night. if we can find someone else to drive, then we're getting drunk. if not, im going to ask her if she'd think it would be okay if we had a party waiting for john when he got home =) after all the stress of this week, i need nothing more than to drink a 12 pack with some good friends.. and get laid. jenn's been telling me about this cute friend john has.. hmm :)
i really want to play poker. i need a job so i can actually have poker tourneys in my basement, and kick some ass.
i would like to get high, but lack of weed, money, and ride is preventing that right now. oh well..
im so happy that ira and i hung out yesterday. as far as im concerned, everything is back to normal between he and i, minus us having a relationship. i like it a lot. he's a very good person <3
im going to go call him or jason. maybe ill update tomorrow after skills :)
toodaloo!
-tot