Life, Spam, and Piarates
So with all this free time im so enjoying it has given me rise to new ideas, these ideas are about you, me, religion, Neopets, you name it. This whole process of thinking has come about from talking with my docters and Optithermoligists (i think thats how you spell it), but has only recently been brought to my attention by a teacher. Her name is Gail Dial. A very VERY talented jewlery crafter, and a bit of a Goonie. We were butting heads today in Jewlery Crafting shop and she brought somthing to my attention. Due to my obscure actuall view on reality due to my vision issue, I have changed a lot of my views on reality on every level. Things can no longer be on the straight and narrow she told me BECAUSE i can no longer see the straight and narrow. This, for some reason or another, made me think all about my own life. Where I am going and who I am going with has all changed since my vision issue. How I see other people has also changed. Strange how perception can change over time in all forms. I used to be devout christian, then at abou 8 I became Wiccan, then got sick of ALL the stereo types and fakers on all sides of the spectrum i just chose to be other. Now I am Taoist, with strong Wiccan backround, and a very avid FSMist. My how the years have changed. And I really have begun to wonder, "How have my other freinds from childhood changed as well." Ii ran into one just the other day her name is Chelsy. In school she was a cheerleader, very permiscuous, and smoked a lot of pot. Yet she was VERY strongly against harder drugs, wanted to get married and have kids, and VERY beautifull. She now lives with her brother and slings Meth, is unable to have kids due to meth, and is not so very pritty any more. I wonder what heppened to make her change like that. All this week I have been turning down alchohal, and drugs. So not pirate i know but i've been rying to be a good role modddel for my newly adopted 13 year old daughter. She swears like a sailor (im working on that one) and has some ungreatfullness abouther but i really do care about her. I spent like an hour today helping her with her math and english homework. I've been teaching her about Taoism, due to her absolute hatred for the LDS religion as her parents forced it on her. And now that her parents are in a slump with the cash i've even ben feeding her, and that says somting. Today I hade some frezer burtn chiken nugets (7 to be exact) a can of corn, one hot dog and a lot of water. My daughter had Tacobell, a salad, some fruit, and a steak. I also called up the mothe of my other 3 "kids" and asked how they were doing, if they needed diapers, formula, cloths, toys, or anything else. Yes i spent the rest of ALL the money i had on them today. man, fo being a father of 4 you would think i could at least have slept wth ANY of these childrens mothers, hell even an Aunt or two would have been kewl. Yet I have no problums with the face that there is no "reward" for this. Is this normal.... Should a 21 year old have that many kids, be broke and starving just to provide for them and always he feels happy. Like working to go to med school wasnt enough on my plate, yet i have no bitch aout the whole situation. I mean, i've been doing this routine since I was 16 and my first, Alex, was born. I guess I'm just used to it now, i dunno. Some day when im old and get to wear purple I will be able to let loose, relax and maybe then I'll have someone to share the happpiness with. But for now its me, Hardwware, and Mega Man against the world. So i guess I'll stop writing now and go clean more, that being my new stay at home mother hobby and all. Well TTFN and remember to Pirate responsable, because its al fun and games till someones Hot Dog falls into the fire!