[OOC: SVE earns her Hell Bramble with an FST galore]
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[O.R.T.]
Mary Elizabeth Glynn
Prologue.
~ 0/0/00
Is it lonely where you are…
In there... Dad?
Does the darkness know your name?
Does Mom?
What's it like?
Can you feel?
She said her blood turns to ash
Laughing...
Dad, do you know what you've done this time to me?
Oh,
Burning eyes can't forgive you
Howling moon drives on
And deep in me
Your illusion
What you see in me
Is...
Did you have that dream again?
Release...
Breathe...
You're receiving what you said
Said she
Never mind
Emptiness, dead eyes and lost what you found
Maybe there on the edge is your hope
But you don't look down
Why?
There you go saying nothing
Here's my mind unclear
Or
Could it be?
Maybe something has a hold of me
Like...
~*~
[Where’s my Love?]
Caroline
“I love him though. I came to this school to get away from the pain. Out of mind, out of sight, you know? Hehe ... But now, some people here...they remind me of him. And I'm so, so, so worried again - so worried.”
~ 2/20/08
Where's my love
The one for me
Somewhere too far
Not close enough for me to see
Where's my love
Where could you be
Someone I knew but let slip through
I'm dreaming of you
Oh love, oh love come to me
Where's my love
Give me a clue
Give me a time
Show me a place
I might find you
Where's my love
Don't hide from me
I'll be good to you
I will, honestly
Oh love, oh love come to me
Where's my love
The one for me
Somewhere too far
Not close enough for me to see
Where's my love
Now I see
Hoping someday you'll bring the lovely ending
Oh love, oh love come to me
Oh love, oh love come to me
~*~
[When You Were Young]
The Killers
“I chose to work for the man who saved my life, Ms. Ishimaru. How could I feel anything but rage when you call me a failure? Everyone has their problems. Now I'm building my way up from the bottom.”
~ 2/6/08
You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young
Can we climb this mountain
I don't know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let's take it easy
Easy now
Watch it go
We're burning down the highway skyline
On the back of a hurricane
That started turning
When you were young
When you were young
And sometimes you close your eyes
And see the place where you used to live
When you were young
They say the devil's water
It ain't so sweet
You don't have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while
You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young
(talks like a gentleman)
(like you imagined)
When you were young
I said he doesn't look a thing like Jesus
He doesn't look a thing like Jesus
But more than you'll ever know
~*~
[Everyone Else Has Had More Sex Than Me]
TISM
“... fuck, I won't get laid.”
~ 2/27/08
Everyone else has had more sex than me
ohhh ohhh
Everyone else has had more sex than me
ohhh ohhh
Everyone else has had more sex than me
Does anyone else get that feeling?
Teenagers, naked, couples in threes;
Grandparents swing from the ceiling;
Everyone else has had more sex than me
ohhh ohhh
Everyone else has had more sex than me
ohhh ohhh
Corporate capers and office amour;
Shenanigans outdoor and in
Resist, and then later you find out there's more
Regret in not doing the sin.
All loves have to die - of that there's no help;
My favorite way to end ‘em
Is the orb-weaver spider's, whose pedipalp
Enters the female pudendum,
Then dies on the spot, his corpse there still stuck,
Left for his rivals to curse it.
He would rather die than not get to fuck:
Personally, I reckon it's worth it
Everyone else has had more sex than me
ohhh ohhh
Does everybody else get that feeling?
ohhh ohhh
Everyone else has had more sex than me
ohhh ohhh
Does everybody else get that feeling?
Whoa ohhhh ohhh ohh
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everybody else
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone
Does Everyone think?
~*~
[Your Armor]
Charlotte Martin
She rarely ever heard him laugh; in the past, if he did utter one it was often laced with mockery or pride.
~ 3/6/08
Would you like the chance to shatter heaven?
Would you like to be the one who pulls the sky down just for me?
Round and round and round we run, and pretend the sun is all you need
I’ve never known a moment to be frozen
You’re making deals with minutes that will slip away, just slip away
So starve the garden stop the rain-
Winter settles on my petals anyways…anyways
Is your armor thin again
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found?
Nothing into something into nothing
Every rule you break means there’s no turning back, no looking back.
The words that I could never say -
The clutter that is in your way is nothing new… nothing new
Is your armor thin again?
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found?
Is your armor thin again?
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found…
Wandering between the girl you search for and the one you leave
And I cannot wait…
Chasing you around the room is tempting
So near and far away from meaning anything to you-
But just remember if you’re jumping, I would start my jump off
Running after you…
Is your armor thin again?
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found?
Is your armor thin again?
Do I want to wear it down?
Am I worthy to come in?
Am I worthy to come in?
Am I worthy to come in?
Do you want to be found?
~*~
[Headlock]
Imogen Heap
“Look at me. It's hardly like I'm a prize, is it?”
“...why do you say that? You look perfectly perfect. Just because Ayukawa-sensei wasn't interested in romance doesn't mean no one else likes you...”
“…Feh. I'm growing old, Sora.”
~ 3/20/08
Distant flickerings,
It's greener scenery,
This weather's bringing it all back again.
Great adventures,
Faces in condensation,
I'm going outside to take it all in.
You say too late to start got your heart in a headlock,
I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.
We're a different pair,
Just something out of step,
Throw a stranger an unexpected smile.
With big intention,
Still posted at your station,
Always on about the day it should have flied.
You say too late to start got your heart in a headlock,
I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.
(How can you lose?) Afraid to start, got your heart in a headlock, I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.
You've been walking,
You've been hiding,
And you look half dead half the time.
Monitoring you, like machines do,
You've still got it, I'm just keeping an eye
You've still got it, I'm just keeping an eye
You know you're better than this
Can't make a start, got your heart in a headlock,
but I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.
(How can you lose?) Afraid to start, got your heart in a headlock,
I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.
~*~
[Foolish Games]
Jewel
Does he honestly think that he’s so important she has to suffer even more for his attention? But no more, she thinks. Her heart hurts so terribly, terribly much.
~ 3/25/08
You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.
And I watched from my window,
Always felt I was outside looking in on you.
You're always the mysterious one with
Dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive
But too cool to care.
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather.
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees, and...
These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.
You're always brilliant in the morning,
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee.
Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you.
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar.
Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself.
And these foolish games are tearing me
You’re tearing me,
You’re tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
You're breaking my heart.
You took your coat off,
Stood in the rain,
You're always crazy like that.
~*~
[Living Dead Girl]
Rob Zombie
She raises her arm into the air and there’s a noisy squelching sound as the flesh twists, her skin transforming into a balloon overfilled with pumping blood vessels, bulging in pink tissues and boils before splitting into a tapered tentacle that shoots forward and wraps around the yellow-eyed crow perched on Mitsuki’s shoulder. In a moment, the tanned, severed bird, still twitching slightly, hangs limply like a washcloth on the ground.
~ 4/11/08
Who is this irresistible creature who has an insatiable love for the dead?
Living Dead Girl!
Rage in the cage
And piss upon the stage
There's only one sure way
To bring the giant down
Defunct the strings
Of cemetery things
With one flat foot
On the devil's wing
Crawl on me
Sink into me
Die for me
Living Dead Girl
Crawl on me
Sink into me
Die for me
Living Dead Girl
Raping the geek
And hustling the freak
Like a hunchback juice
On a sentimental noose
Operation filth
They love to love the wealth
Of an SS Whore
Making scary sounds
Crawl on me
Sink into me
Die for me
Living Dead Girl
Crawl on me
Sink into me
Die for me
Living Dead Girl
Psyclone Jack
Hallucinating Hack
Thinks Donna Reed
Eats dollar bills
Goldfoot machine
Creates another fiend
So Beautiful,
They make you kill
Crawl on me
Sink into me
Die for me
Living Dead Girl
Crawl on me
Sink into me
Die for me
Living Dead Girl
Blood on her skin
Dripping with Sin
Do it again
Living Dead Girl
Blood on her skin
Dripping with Sin
Do it again
Living Dead Girl
~*~
[On Fire]
Switchfoot
Even though it's an awkward location to rest, it's quiet and peaceful on top of the submarine. And although she knows it's clichéd, she honestly wishes this precious moment could last forever.
~ 4/13/08
Tell you where you need to go
Tell you who you need to be
Tell you what you need to know
Tell you when you’ll need to leave
But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you’ve heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words
And you’re on fire
When he’s near you
You’re on fire
When he speaks
You’re on fire
Burning at these mysteries
Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything you are
Give me one more chance to be... near you
Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I’ll take
When I’m on fire
When you’re near me
I’m on fire
When you speak
And I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries...
I’m standing on the edge of me
I’m standing on the edge of me
I’m standing on the edge of me
I’m standing on the edge
And I’m on fire
When you’re near you
I’m on fire
When you speak
Yeah, I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries...
~*~
[Angry Johnny]
Poe
“Do whatever you want. You always do.”
“Toge, is that what you think? Then what about all those other times when I listened to you and did exactly...what ...you ...said?”
~ 4/20/08
Johnny, angry Johnny, this is jezebel in hell
I wanna kill you, I wanna blow you...away
I can do it you gently
I can do it with an animals grace
I can do it with precision
I can do it with gourmet taste
But either way
Either (way), either way
I wanna kill you
I wanna blow you...
Away
I can do it to your mind
I can do it to your face
I can do it with integrity
I can do it with disgrace
But either way
Either (way), either way
I wanna kill you
I wanna blow you...
Away
Johnny, angry Johnny, this is jezebel in hell
Johnny, angry Johnny, this is jezebel in hell
I can do it in a church
I can do it any time or place
I can do it like an angel
To quiet down your rage
But either way
Either (way), either way
I wanna kill you
I wanna blow you...
Away
I can do it in the water
I can do on dry land
I can do it with instruments
I can do it with my own bare hands
But either way
Either way, you know where it stands
I wanna kill you
I wanna blow you...
Away
Johnny, angry Johnny, this is jezebel in hell
Johnny, oh my Johnny
Where did your pleasure go
When the pain came through you
Where did your happiness go
This force is running you around now
Getting you down now
Where is your pleasure now Johnny
Where has your pleasure gone now
Johnny, angry Johnny...
~*~
[Hunting Humans]
Misfits
“What the fuck are you playin' at? …D'you know what'll happen to this kid? He ain't ever coming back. And you killed. You ain't better than every other nutjob on this island. You ain't even sorry, are you?”
“…you have no right to tell me what is right and what is wrong, and treat me like I'm some kind of child just because my morals, my ethics cannot be placed on the same level as yours -”
~ 5/30/08
Upon this threshold of disaster
The birth of the eleventh plague
The fires burn at night, I begin to doubt the smell of burning flesh
Will ever fade away
The touch of death is all around us
A thousand corpses block our way
A man-made germ makes almost everyone commit suicide
Just to rise and eat their dead
Night of the living Dead...
We're hunting humans
We're hunting humans
We're hunting humans
It's killing time every day
I can't control this eerie feeling
An evil screaming in my head
I don't I'll last the night
There is no cure
For this genocide
Or resurrection of the dead
Night of the living Dead...
We're hunting humans...
~*~
[Jealousy Rides With Me]
Death Cab For Cutie
“Some respect - for you much as I. That green-haired kid was throwing himself on you. Where's your pride then, eh?”
“... green-haired kid... ? ... Tsubasa? Are you kidding me with this.”
~ 6/2/08
Jealousy rides with me
such a faithful companion no one could be
and he sits on my shoulder
and whispers the things that make me so bitter its sick
jealousy rides with me
in wake or in slumber I can't get relief
from the pictures he paints of the passion in heat
and though I try I can't stop listening
And I've tried bribery, but to no effect
’cause there's no amount of money that would get him to split
as long as I'm living and we're not together
I'll be chained to this beast with no chance of severance 'cause
Jealousy rides with me
Such a faithful companion no one could be
For a journey that leads to the outskirts of time
But don't worry about me, I'll be fine
It beats being lonely, I'll be fine.
~*~
[Do What You Have To Do]
Sarah McLachlan
“Mitsuki … sorry.”
~ 7/10/08
What ravages of spirit
Conjured this temptuous rage
Created you a monster
Broken by the rules of love
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do ...
And I have the sense to recognize that
I don’t know how to let you go
Every moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I’m ever swiftly moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
But I have the sense to recognize
That I don’t know how
To let you go
I don’t know how
To let you go
A glowing ember
Burning hot
Burning slow
Deep within I’m shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you
I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do
And I have sense to recognize but
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
~*~
[Tainted Love]
Soft Cell
“Do you have any idea... how much I love you?”
~ 7/10/08
Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my light
For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Oh...tainted love
Tainted love
Now I know I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
You don't really want IT any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
And you’ll think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Oh...tainted love
Tainted love
Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm going to pack my things and go
Tainted love, tainted love
Tainted love, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
~*~
[Every Breath You Take]
The Police
Then it'll stay this way. She enjoys basking in his presence, enjoys being with him, even if he doesn't know she's there. It's like it was in the past.
~ 7/24/08
Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I’ll be watching you
Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I’ll be watching you
Oh, cant you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I’ll be watching you
Since you’ve gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but its you I cant replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby, please...
Oh, cant you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches
With every breath you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I’ll be watching you
Every move you make
Every step you take
I’ll be watching you
I’ll be watching you
I’ll be watching you
I’ll be watching you
I’ll be watching you...
~*~
[I Love You…I’ll Kill You]
Enigma
“I'm telling you here right and now - you aren't scared of death, right? Well if my brother ever finds out about the truth from someone else other than me, I swear I will make your life such a fucking miserable mess that you will be begging your precious Ichinose-kochou to kill you so help me god.”
~ 7/31/08
I see love, I can see passion
I feel danger, I feel obsession
Don't play games with the ones who love you
Cause I hear a voice who says:
I love you... I'll kill you...
Loneliness, I feel loneliness in my room...
Look into the mirror of your soul
Love and hate are one in all
Sacrifice turns to revenge and believe me
You'll see the face who'll say:
I love you... I'll kill you...
But I'll love you forever.
Loneliness, I feel loneliness in my room...
~*~
[Crown of Thorns]
Social Distortion
“... I can't believe this is really what you want. How badly did I fuck you up?”
“I would have thought you'd be happy. Considering what I'd be - a monster. Isn't that more fitting than some stupid pathetic dog?”
“The man I loved wasn't a monster.”
~ 8/12/08
Pretty much been alone now, for almost five years
I could always find a way, to hide these bitter tears
And still I am waiting, and wishing somehow
I wish I knew then, what I know now
Its no bed of roses, it ain't no crown of thorns
Better than lonely, I've been there before
Gotta bad reputation, for playing with love
Gonna play again now, and beat the odds above
And still I am waiting, and wishing somehow
I wish I knew then, what I know now
Its no bed of roses, it ain't no crown of thorns
Better than lonely, I've been there before
Are you tired of being alone?
Or have you fallen out of love?
Do you care enough about yourself?
I have worn your crown of thorns
Its no bed of roses, it ain't no crown of thorns
Better than lonely, I've been there before
~*~
[Beautiful Freak]
Eels
“Well, I think you’re…”
~ 8/14/08
You’re such a beautiful freak
I wish there were more just like you
You’re not like all of the others
And that is why I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak
That is why I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak
Some people think you have a problem
But that problem lies only with them
Just cause you are not like the others
But that is why I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak
Yeah that is why I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak
Too good for this world
But I hope you will stay
And Ill be here to see that you don’t fade away
You’re such a beautiful freak
I bet you are flying inside
Dart down and then go for cover
And know that I
I love you
Beautiful freak,
You know that I
I love you
Beautiful freak, beautiful freak
~*~
[In Her Eyes]
Josh Groban
“...That's why I'm doing this. So I never leave you... and I can protect you. And everyone.”
“… You're so cool, sensei...”
~ 8/26/08
She stares through my shadow
She sees something more
Believes there's a light in me
She is sure
And her truth makes me stronger
Does she realize
I awake every morning
With her strength by my side
I am not a hero
I am not an angel
I am just a man
Man who's trying to love her
Unlike any other
In her eyes I am
This world keeps on spinning
Only she stills my heart
She's my inspiration
She's my northern star
I don't count my possession
All I call mine
I will give her completely
To the end of all time
I am not a hero
I am not an angel
I am just a man
Man who's trying to love her
Unlike any other
In her eyes I am
In her eyes I see the sky and all I'll ever need
In her eyes time passes by and she is with me
I am not a hero
I am not an angel
I am just a man
Man who's trying to love her
Unlike any other
In her eyes I am
In her eyes I am
~*~
[Take It Easy]
Bright Eyes
Epilogue.
~ 0/0/00
First with your hands and then with your mouth
A downpour of sweat, damp cotton clouds
I was a fool, you were my friend
We made it happen
You took off your clothes, left on the light
You stood there so brave
You used to be shy
Each feature improved, each movement refined and eyes like a showroom
Now they are spreading out the blankets on the beach
That weatherman is a liar
He said it would be raining but it's clear and blue as far as I can see
Left by the lamp, right next to the bed,
on a cartoon cat pad she scratched with a pen,
"Everything is as it's always been.
This never happened.
Don't take it too bad it is nothing you did.
It's just once something dies you can't make it live.
You're a beautiful boy.
You're a sweet little kid but I am a woman."
So I laid back down and wrapped myself up in the sheet
And I must have looked like a ghost 'cause something frightened me
and since then I've been so good at vanishing
Now I do as I please and lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap but I just feel free...
and a little bit empty
No, it isn't so hard to get close to me
There will be no arguments
We will always agree
And I'll try and be kind when I ask you to leave
We'll both take it easy
But if you stay too long inside my memory,
I will trap you in a song tied to a melody
and I will keep you there so you can't bother me
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The full zip is here: Field of Dandelions - A Sora x Mitsuki FST.