it was all a dream

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i haven't written in this for a while. break has started. my mom had a frickin spaz attack on...saturday i think. it was actually really scary and i cried. jehan came and picked me up and she gave her the dirtiest look i've ever seen. i love that brown girl. so i was talking to you know who about himself, and how i used to/might still like him a lot (but i didn't tell him about the "might still" part). it was kind of awkward but he's a sweetheart so it isn't too bad. josh is completely ignoring me now or something. i duno, it's weird. dee and brian are together forever now. that's nice. they went on a double date with leah and my cousin. ewww. jeffey. haha i'm just kidding. he's pretty cool. i got all these pictures onto my computer they are funny. i have nothing to do today because i'm waiting for krista to get home. last night i felt really weird. i felt like i wanted to cry but i wasn't really sad. i'm getting the feeling back. i wish something really happy would happen to me. but i just seem to be doing things that get me down. oh well, christmas is on thursday so hopefully i will get something that makes me happy. i know that makes me sound really materialistic but sometimes it helps. but then if i don't get anything good i will probably cry. i really am a brat. oh well, soon we are going to jasper too so i'm excited about that because i get to ski for like 5 days straight in marmot. i just need to get away from friends and think about stuff ya know? this is such a weird depressed sounding entry, haha oh my. krista isn't mad at me. phew. i'm going to go put on some sweatpants and eat a candy cane.

love you all

ps. happy christmas ron!! (if you can guess the movie i will LOVE YOU forever)