Soooooooooooooo bored!
There is just nothing to do but read today...and even that gets boring after a while. I can't wait to get out of this house! It's driving me crazy!
So...last night was interesting. There were definitely things that shouldn't have been said...but that was on Dominic's side. I think at some point I may write him an email (worded very nicely) about exactly what my issue is with him. But not today, and not now.
I don't know what the plan is for tonight. All I know that the endless fighting with my brothers and my overflowing boredom is getting to me...I NEED OUT!!!!
There's only 5 days of camp left. That makes me really sad. I mean, sure, I bitch about things that are bad at camp, but lately I'm feeling like the only person there that actually likes their job. I really love it. Getting to be with kids and play all day long is really awesome. And the pay really isn't that big of a problem--for me, anyway. I've never had a paying job before and I don't have anything like a car that I really need money for. I guess I'll just be sad when camp really is all over with. I wish that a lot of us (NOT all of us, mind you) went to the same school. I'm really going to miss a lot of people. But, hey, I'll cope, I guess.
Other that that, I guess everything is pretty much okay. There's still the constant struggle with my emotions that's going on in my head all the time. It's toned down some over the past week, but Friday night it will just be heightened all over again. I don't know what to do about it anymore. Just taking the initiative isn't something I can do in this situation. Given the circumstances and knowing that school is starting soon, I can't just find out for myself what's really going on here. But, that's the way it always is and I just have to deal with. "Just deal with it...just deal with it...just deal with it...just deal with it...."
So...last night was interesting. There were definitely things that shouldn't have been said...but that was on Dominic's side. I think at some point I may write him an email (worded very nicely) about exactly what my issue is with him. But not today, and not now.
I don't know what the plan is for tonight. All I know that the endless fighting with my brothers and my overflowing boredom is getting to me...I NEED OUT!!!!
There's only 5 days of camp left. That makes me really sad. I mean, sure, I bitch about things that are bad at camp, but lately I'm feeling like the only person there that actually likes their job. I really love it. Getting to be with kids and play all day long is really awesome. And the pay really isn't that big of a problem--for me, anyway. I've never had a paying job before and I don't have anything like a car that I really need money for. I guess I'll just be sad when camp really is all over with. I wish that a lot of us (NOT all of us, mind you) went to the same school. I'm really going to miss a lot of people. But, hey, I'll cope, I guess.
Other that that, I guess everything is pretty much okay. There's still the constant struggle with my emotions that's going on in my head all the time. It's toned down some over the past week, but Friday night it will just be heightened all over again. I don't know what to do about it anymore. Just taking the initiative isn't something I can do in this situation. Given the circumstances and knowing that school is starting soon, I can't just find out for myself what's really going on here. But, that's the way it always is and I just have to deal with. "Just deal with it...just deal with it...just deal with it...just deal with it...."