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twenty-one. voice.

Nov 09, 2011 23:04

When I evacuated the City, I wondered if I should stay away. Not-- in the evacuation center specifically, that would have been ridiculous and likely illegal, but just away. Just someplace else. I mean-- I mean there's a great big world out there, you know, a world with parks that aren't all fucked up because of monster attacks. Swing sets. Wishing ( Read more... )

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afeatherpillow November 10 2011, 04:26:00 UTC

You really do have some sort of obsession with him, don't you? Spouting inanities like that.

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afeatherpillow November 10 2011, 04:32:57 UTC

I'm not going to tell you my reason.

But it doesn't involve Edward.

voice; private enigmaestro November 10 2011, 04:36:36 UTC

Ah.

[Beat.]

So. Why did I ring false?

voice; private afeatherpillow November 10 2011, 04:47:31 UTC

--T-That isn't to say it completely involves you, most of it doesn't involve you, most of it is very, very specific and not something I ever expect to happen but the people I know here are important to me and I do stay in part because of them, because I don't leaving things incomplete.

voice; private enigmaestro November 10 2011, 04:50:09 UTC

[Squints.]

Are you trying to say you're fond of me?

voice; private afeatherpillow November 10 2011, 05:03:36 UTC

I've said it before, haven't I?

voice; private enigmaestro November 10 2011, 05:07:06 UTC

In your typical empty-worded way, yes. And we never explored why you said it.

So shall we, right now? Why are you fond of me?

voice; private afeatherpillow November 10 2011, 23:24:26 UTC

[An awkward laugh.]

And I'm less fond when you probe like that.

voice; private enigmaestro November 10 2011, 23:27:44 UTC

All the more reason to probe, then, isn't it?

Come on, Katurian, if this is something Desire can use against you, I have a right to know.

voice; private afeatherpillow November 11 2011, 00:01:03 UTC

Desire has nothing to--

[Quickly:]

Isn't it enough that I don't hate you?

voice; private enigmaestro November 11 2011, 00:36:11 UTC

It really isn't, Katurian. If your angle is my friendship --

Let's put it this way. Say you opened up to someone, thought he was like-minded and pleasant enough, saw some potential -- something really great -- saw a way to perhaps safeguard him from a very bad thing. Say he misinterpreted something you did and consequentially tried to kill you.

Then say -- to add insult to injury -- he told you that you are not an artist, that everything you do is wrong and false. Say he told you that your writing is infantile and clumsy and altogether pedantic. He refused to listen to reason, refused to open his mind to your perspective.

And then say, after months and months, he told you that he didn't actually hate you and isn't that enough?

So tell me, Katurian. Is that enough?

voice; private afeatherpillow November 11 2011, 00:43:48 UTC

I made a mistake.

voice; private enigmaestro November 11 2011, 00:44:38 UTC

You made more than one mistake.

voice; private afeatherpillow November 11 2011, 00:58:30 UTC

That's-- the story of my life, listen, I already told you that I'm not asking for forgiveness. I don't need you to be my friend. But you're an intelligent man and an inventive man and there have been many times when I've sincerely looked up to you.

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