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[locked from: remus, bruno, seto, franziska, kiryu, csezlaw, eridan, and yusuke. this is the weirdest lock ever; all replies voice unless stated differently.]
I can't do this anymore.
[Hello, City. This is Ruka. This is Ruka having an emotional breakdown.]
I'm sick of being the oldest person on my block. I'm sick of recognizing people who don't know who I am. I'm sick of having to explain, over, and over, and over again, how the people I care about most got here, and lie to them, and tell them they'll get to go home really soon when I know they won't. I have to introduce myself to my closest friends. My boss is younger than me. My dad is younger than me. Do you get what that's like, really? I mean, I can't even tell him who I am. Everyone's so freaked out and scared, and I'm stuck trying to be the strong and responsible one, and I can't tell him that we're family. I c-can't--
[A hiccup for a pause.]
I've already lost my family. Most of my friends are gone. I, I keep trying to be optimistic, but I can't do this anymore. I haven't seen my brother in seven months, Papa won't care about me, even if he comes back, even if he remembers who I am. Everyone else is gone, and now the only people I have left are just dumb kids and my dad has a crush on me.
It's, I can't do this anymore. I'd rather have bears and lions fighting in my living room, or Godzilla yelling at everyone, or lose my powers, or monsters fighting in the streets. I'd rather go back to when we had to worry about Iron Man spying on us, or going to war, because at least then we were all together, and I...
I give up.
I can't do this anymore.
[Hello, City. This is Ruka. This is Ruka having an emotional breakdown.]
I'm sick of being the oldest person on my block. I'm sick of recognizing people who don't know who I am. I'm sick of having to explain, over, and over, and over again, how the people I care about most got here, and lie to them, and tell them they'll get to go home really soon when I know they won't. I have to introduce myself to my closest friends. My boss is younger than me. My dad is younger than me. Do you get what that's like, really? I mean, I can't even tell him who I am. Everyone's so freaked out and scared, and I'm stuck trying to be the strong and responsible one, and I can't tell him that we're family. I c-can't--
[A hiccup for a pause.]
I've already lost my family. Most of my friends are gone. I, I keep trying to be optimistic, but I can't do this anymore. I haven't seen my brother in seven months, Papa won't care about me, even if he comes back, even if he remembers who I am. Everyone else is gone, and now the only people I have left are just dumb kids and my dad has a crush on me.
It's, I can't do this anymore. I'd rather have bears and lions fighting in my living room, or Godzilla yelling at everyone, or lose my powers, or monsters fighting in the streets. I'd rather go back to when we had to worry about Iron Man spying on us, or going to war, because at least then we were all together, and I...
I give up.