No. 31 [video] locked from the Major and the Joker

[hackeralastair]

[even though he sat for a very long time fidgeting with the comm, turning it around in his hands, before hitting 'record,' Alastair sits there and stares for another long moment before speaking

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[satisfiedsigner]

[nope, Kiryu's not even going to bother being lazy today. he'll be showing up wherever Alastair is, maybe looking a little concerned.]

...Hey.

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[hackeralastair]

[oh good the one person in the world who still loves him. Tossing the comm on the bed behind him]

Hey.

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[satisfiedsigner]

[Kiryu briefly glances at his comm to make it clear that he had seen the post and it was definitely on his mind. then he shoves it in his pocket and walks over.]

How are you doing?

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[hackeralastair]

M'okay. Until people start coming out of the woodwork to kick my ass, anyway.

[he catches the hint - that means he doesn't have to explain]

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[satisfiedsigner]

Heh. They won't get very far.

[he climbs onto the bed next to Alastair]

...You really hate this power, huh?

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[hackeralastair]

[just sitting with his hands in his lap, though the close company is welcome]

It's...I'm torn. I mean. I can finally do something. Somebody comes after you or Bakura, I don't have to run and hide. But this...I don't like being under its control. I don't know how to make it work without having it take me over and use my own darkness against me...

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[satisfiedsigner]

[and he just feels so guilty about seeing nothing wrong with that. if it bothered Alastair, obviously there was something wrong with it...]

...You didn't seem all that different to me.

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[hackeralastair]

[that's what he's afraid of]

I'm supposed to be different. Better. I was supposed to be turning things around and doing right with my life. I guess I was just fooling myself after all. Maybe Kaiba's right about me.

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[satisfiedsigner]

[oh whoops. wrong way to try to cheer Alastair up.]

...Alright, so maybe you were a little different. Because you were pissed off. There's nothing wrong with that.

You're still a better person than I am.

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[hackeralastair]

I don't think that.

[he puts an arm around Kiryu to pull him closer, looking for comfort. And maybe messing with his hair a little]

You're strong and brave and always looked out for us. I'm nothing next to you. Sometimes I wonder what you see in a jerk like me. And now that you've seen me totally fail and lose my soul for it...

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[satisfiedsigner]

Well, you did lose to Kaiba...

[he smiles a little and relaxes into Alastair's embrace. and briefly leans over to kiss his law.]

I see who I was a long time ago. When I was a better person. You're not that much of a jerk.

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[hackeralastair]

He's not that special. [pout]

Come on, I'm totally a jerk. [clinging!] You don't give yourself enough credit, Kyosuke. You're better than you think you are.

[after a sigh] ...I don't know what to do.

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[satisfiedsigner]

[Kiryu smiles bitterly, but he's not going to argue, even if he really doesn't think so. He's more worried about Alastair to bother with arguing.

and he'll shift a little to grab Alastair's free hand.]

You know what my advice would be. That power's saved my life a couple times now...I can't hate it.

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[hackeralastair]

I know. I just wish it wasn't...what it is.

[holding and touching and being close is much more soothing than talking. He's going to take as much of it as he can get, before the scolding from other people starts]

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[satisfiedsigner]

Mmm. It's a lot like what I could do back home. My mark reacted to it too...

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[hackeralastair]

Did it? [thinking, remembering] ...it did. Weird.