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[mobius_bound]

[TEXT]

Desire
-verb (used with object)
1. to wish or long for; crave; want.
2. to express a wish to obtain; ask for; request: The mayor desires your presence at the next meeting.

-noun3. a longing or craving, as for something that brings satisfaction or enjoyment: a desire for fame

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voice; private

[implemented]

Ah. Desire. Of course.

[ A beat. ]

Have you had yours met yet, Cameron?

voice; private

[mobius_bound]

[ It takes Cameron a while to reply. ]

Yes. No.

John was ported out of the City. It is affecting my ability to...

[ A laugh. ]

It is affecting my ability.

voice; private

[implemented]

That's rather unfortunate to hear, my dear.

[ A bit warily: ] But perhaps it's for the best.

voice; private

[mobius_bound]

Yes. Perhaps.

It will take time to adjust. I keep falling asleep.

voice; private

[implemented]

[ Matter-of-factly: ] He effects your mood negatively too often for my tastes. Your life here is your own.

You should take the opportunity to discover what that means, Cameron.

voice; private

[mobius_bound]

Yes. I suspected you would say that.

Do you know one of the reasons we are friends, Nigel, is that I would like to be able to deal with my emotions the way that you do?

voice; private

[implemented]

Hopefully, I've not become too predictable. Though consistency is preferable.

[ A beat. ]

And how exactly do I deal with them -- from your perspective?

voice; private

[mobius_bound]

No, not predictable. But consistent. Which I like. It is nice that you are interested in my mood.

[ The rustle of blankets. ]

You do not allow things to trouble you, that I have observed. You are efficient.

voice; private

[implemented]

It seems that there aren't enough people that are. Even among those that you consider your friends, though I suppose that can be expected. People are selfish by nature and much more prone to think about themselves before others.

It's your turn to be selfish, Cameron. Do you understand?

[ A kind of shrugging noise. ]

I don't like uselessness.

voice; private

[mobius_bound]

Hmm. Kyle is. He discusses some of the same topics with me that you do, though his viewpoint is more that of a parent or caretaker.

I understand. Do you understand that there was a time that was impossible? I have been selfish once this week and I am still uncertain if it was the best idea. It will be difficult.

[ Tiny laugh. ]

Neither do I.

voice; private

[implemented]

Is that what Kyle is to you -- a parent? [ A thoughtful noise. ]

Yes, I understand, Cameron. These sorts of things don't come easily; they take time and patience and dedication to learn and get right.

Just as long as you remain diligent. I know you can.

voice; private

[mobius_bound]

As close to one as I am going to get, I suspect. He has known me for a very long time, both here and before.

[ A pause. ]

Will you assist me in this?

voice; private

[implemented]

Do you really want a parent? It's something people equate with selflessness more often than not, when in reality they're more preoccupied with reinventing themselves in their children. Only they attempt to undo all of the mistakes they made in themselves. You can only imagine how well that turns out.

[ A long pause, and then lowly: ]

Of course, Cameron. We're friends after all, aren't we?

voice; private

[mobius_bound]

[ A pause while she considers this. ]

I suspect that it is a little different for Kyle. He was going to die, back home, so he doesn't view his life on a scale of mistakes and accomplishments. He only wishes to assist with that which he views as needing the assistance, I believe.

It is all right. I don't mind it.

[ Another light laugh. ]

We are friends, yes.

voice; private

[implemented]

Hm. [ A thoughtful pause. ] Yes, I imagine being faced with one's own mortality can swing one of two ways. Luckily, Kyle isn't plagued with a sense of lost opportunity that suddenly becomes your responsibility.

[ Clears his throat, his voice gaining the slightest edge. ]

I'm sorry that I wasn't able to see you yesterday, like we'd planned. Something unexpected came up.

voice; private

[mobius_bound]

No, I do not think so. If you were to meet him there is a chance you would get along. However there is also a chance he would find your emotional responses distressing to a degree.

[ A curious tone. ]

And you are well, I take it?