My greatest enemy is my inner me.
That quote is one of my favorites. Its by lupe fiasco, and its kind of my ultimate attitude towards life. At least i try to keep it like that. I realize that there are no obstacles in my life that i cannot overcome if i will myself to do so. It is no easy task though. Even though i know that and say that, its extremely difficult to accomplish. If it weren't i'd be rich and fabulous already. But since i don't have will power to that level i try to keep on top of school and keep in shape. It doesn't always work. I try. As always i try.
Today i was at a pretty low spot. Unmotivated to do much of anythign and completely exhausted and discouraged from doing much of anything. But then someone who i love and respect very much told me they'd be disappointed in me if i didn't do my best. So i ended up going to the library and getting an ok start on my history exam. Tonight i got an email from someone looking for a study group which is awesome. So maybe i'll do ok. Then, even though i realy really didn't want to, i went to judo. Partly becuase i realized i couldn't go wednesday or friday, mostly because i didn't want her to be disappointed in me. I like making her proud.
So i went to judo and started feeling much better. Less lethargic and less stressed. I even came home and lifted weights, although i over did it in a few areas (damn squats!)
Tomorrow i need to go practice the rest of the exam writing and study up con law, especially eakin v. raub. I don't really get that case. Also i'm going to work on what i'll say in front of the prelaw society so that they'll vote me chairman of the committee. I don't care how scary it is, i need to take charge and do something! I mean first of all it'll look really good on a resume especially since its the volunteering committee. Secondly I might be able to meet more people in the prelaw society which woudl be kind of fun. And third, i've always been scared of responsibility and being in charge. Its good to take on fears. I want to be all i can be as a person and a man.
Its funny, part of me kind of doesn't like that becuase its less cool. Apathy and subculture have become so synonmous and cool seeming, but who cares. I don't care what they all think. I want to be a burning burning star rising through the sky like a rocket before bursting into a nova of phospherous and magnesium blazing embers and tails in the sky screaming and popping while the world is my audience who look up from their pocketwatches and legal pads to say "aww" and see what beauty i've become for the brief moments before i burn and burn and burn out and am left nothing NO-THING but a memory in the back of their eyelids.
"I had nothing to offer anyone but my confusion"
Kerouacv
"My greatest enemy is my inner me."
Lupe
Today i was at a pretty low spot. Unmotivated to do much of anythign and completely exhausted and discouraged from doing much of anything. But then someone who i love and respect very much told me they'd be disappointed in me if i didn't do my best. So i ended up going to the library and getting an ok start on my history exam. Tonight i got an email from someone looking for a study group which is awesome. So maybe i'll do ok. Then, even though i realy really didn't want to, i went to judo. Partly becuase i realized i couldn't go wednesday or friday, mostly because i didn't want her to be disappointed in me. I like making her proud.
So i went to judo and started feeling much better. Less lethargic and less stressed. I even came home and lifted weights, although i over did it in a few areas (damn squats!)
Tomorrow i need to go practice the rest of the exam writing and study up con law, especially eakin v. raub. I don't really get that case. Also i'm going to work on what i'll say in front of the prelaw society so that they'll vote me chairman of the committee. I don't care how scary it is, i need to take charge and do something! I mean first of all it'll look really good on a resume especially since its the volunteering committee. Secondly I might be able to meet more people in the prelaw society which woudl be kind of fun. And third, i've always been scared of responsibility and being in charge. Its good to take on fears. I want to be all i can be as a person and a man.
Its funny, part of me kind of doesn't like that becuase its less cool. Apathy and subculture have become so synonmous and cool seeming, but who cares. I don't care what they all think. I want to be a burning burning star rising through the sky like a rocket before bursting into a nova of phospherous and magnesium blazing embers and tails in the sky screaming and popping while the world is my audience who look up from their pocketwatches and legal pads to say "aww" and see what beauty i've become for the brief moments before i burn and burn and burn out and am left nothing NO-THING but a memory in the back of their eyelids.
"I had nothing to offer anyone but my confusion"
Kerouacv
"My greatest enemy is my inner me."
Lupe