Schoo, Mr Taste!

Dec 08, 2006 18:09

"I don't want to taste anything", said the taster and the tastless toaster stared back in a void of confusion. "Does this mean that my theory on topical tastes are wrong" he asked. The Taster stood on the chair and looked like he was trying to fly with his arms... In other words, he was flapping his arms upside-down.

"Well", the Taster started, "I can't get from here to there if I had a taste, therefor I must have somekind of different taste, not especially umami to say, but a taste which have no borders". The Toaster look up at the Taster: "But that means you won't have any taste at all".

I dunno what I was doing perhaps one year ago when everything seemed to be about taste. In this case it was taste about movies, art, music or litterature. Hmm, I think it was especially music in this case, the thing I consume more than any of the earlier, yet, in my life. So to say, I was trying to define my taste, because most often I had no one who I could talk about it with or that I felt I knew would be on the same wavelength when talking music.

So I figured, why do I not get a taste? All you need to do is to pick your favourite person in the world, preferably someone you adore very much in one way or another. The next step is to read as much as you can about them and what they think. Read interviews and read their bio at their homepage. Who are you? Only someone without a taste, that is why you are doing this.

Get rid of everything that is really you, fold into the line of the taste, try and be exactly like that person you want to have the same taste as, because that taste is always "the right thing". Remember, if you ever find something thrilling about whatever new you might find on the net or at the store, just forget it and try to imagine that you are viewing a boxing round between these two wills: your will and the other person's taste.

If you do this you become a really happy and closed in individual who restricts yourself anytime when not necessary. You can't talk to certain people because they don't know that you're belonging somewhere and therefor you don't really need to let to know them. Hah, it is success! Bravo, da capo my friend!

Yeah, now you've turned into the most horrible state of mind there is. I can't find a better word than "restricted". My mind couldn't live restricted, I noticed, and sometimes it rebelled with quirks I never could understand. Ultimately I had to understand that: "In order to be able to enjoy yourself with others in a group you must understand who you are as an individual, without so called SELF-ESTEEM you can't leave yourself to others. Especially when your brain is going on so called cognitive dissonance 24/7".

Well, what I really want to say is that you can't rebel against your own curiosity. After a while your brain turn to mush and you feel angry and can't take anyone because your world is crumbling and whenever they are hurting you it hurt so much because you got no self-esteem.

So, in a way, I am trying to leave that thought on "taste" behind. Otherwise I won't be able to look myself in the mirror, sleep at night, talk to others, this und that, that und this. There!

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