i don't know
don't you just hate the feeling of not knowing what is going to happen. I mean, why can't life just show you what is ahead. It would make things so much easier. I am not big on surprises b/c usually they end up being not what i wanted to happen. But unfortunately i am back in that situation. I don't know what is ahead of me at all. It sux. I feel so confused. I fear for the worse. I DON'T KNOW.