i lied?
well, not really. i had been fed up with livejournal for awhile. i am back, but only like annually, or something.
anyway, i feel like a lot has happened, and strangely enough i feel as though i need to "update" my lj friends on what's going on. i'm guessing some of you are at least somewhat interested.
my life has changed drastically. well, it's changed quite a bit anyhow. two weeks ago i decided not to go back to belmont. reasons?
1. i cannot afford it. i don't feel like going bankrupt after i graduate and have like a $30K salary with $50K to pay off with 14% interest. kthanks.
2. i no longer am interested in my major. i know, i know... 3 full years of audio crap and suddenly i have changed my mind??! well, i'm going back to my original dream (from high school): music education. two people that have had a major influence in my life are mrs. biehler, my music/clarinet/band teacher from 4th grade, and theresa (formerly mrs. rowell), my middle and high school music teacher. i want to make that same influence on kids. plus i love music way more than the production of it. it just makes more sense. (let's not forget the benefits and retirement plan... and no latenight hours in the studio, being someone else's bitch. and free weekends!).
3. new york is my home, and there is no sense in trying to create a new life in nashville. everyone i love and care about is right here. living in nashville for the rest of my life, or at least for some of it at this age, defies all logic i have within me.
so... i am going to be working for a year, paying off my huge-freakin' student loan from belmont alone, and saving up $$ to head back to school next fall. i'm looking at SUNY Fredonia. i'll be 23 by the time i receive my B.A., but really, who's counting? yes, if i did this "right" the first time around i could be graduating next may and be working a real job by next fall, but i have my whole life to work. i don't mind taking a little extra time trying to figure my life out.
i was interning at blackdog studios here in rochester, but i have stopped that. as much as i really do like it (especially working along calvin, one of the greats), i've decided i don't want to get sucked into that industry, because in my heart i've always wanted to be a music teacher. i know, i know... that sounds corny. but it's true!
ooh yes, and among other news- i have been in the most wonderful relationship with mr. leo medler since early june. we had a few bumps in the road in the beginning due to strange circumstances you only read about in melodramatic romance novels or see in teen dramas like degrassi, but we're doing awesome now. our relationship is about us and nobody else. everybody and their mother (literally) has been like, "finally, you guys!" (seriously- pretty much everyone we know saw it coming, even before we did.) it's great to be dating your best friend, really.
i guess that's it. i hope you guys are all doing well. peace.
anyway, i feel like a lot has happened, and strangely enough i feel as though i need to "update" my lj friends on what's going on. i'm guessing some of you are at least somewhat interested.
my life has changed drastically. well, it's changed quite a bit anyhow. two weeks ago i decided not to go back to belmont. reasons?
1. i cannot afford it. i don't feel like going bankrupt after i graduate and have like a $30K salary with $50K to pay off with 14% interest. kthanks.
2. i no longer am interested in my major. i know, i know... 3 full years of audio crap and suddenly i have changed my mind??! well, i'm going back to my original dream (from high school): music education. two people that have had a major influence in my life are mrs. biehler, my music/clarinet/band teacher from 4th grade, and theresa (formerly mrs. rowell), my middle and high school music teacher. i want to make that same influence on kids. plus i love music way more than the production of it. it just makes more sense. (let's not forget the benefits and retirement plan... and no latenight hours in the studio, being someone else's bitch. and free weekends!).
3. new york is my home, and there is no sense in trying to create a new life in nashville. everyone i love and care about is right here. living in nashville for the rest of my life, or at least for some of it at this age, defies all logic i have within me.
so... i am going to be working for a year, paying off my huge-freakin' student loan from belmont alone, and saving up $$ to head back to school next fall. i'm looking at SUNY Fredonia. i'll be 23 by the time i receive my B.A., but really, who's counting? yes, if i did this "right" the first time around i could be graduating next may and be working a real job by next fall, but i have my whole life to work. i don't mind taking a little extra time trying to figure my life out.
i was interning at blackdog studios here in rochester, but i have stopped that. as much as i really do like it (especially working along calvin, one of the greats), i've decided i don't want to get sucked into that industry, because in my heart i've always wanted to be a music teacher. i know, i know... that sounds corny. but it's true!
ooh yes, and among other news- i have been in the most wonderful relationship with mr. leo medler since early june. we had a few bumps in the road in the beginning due to strange circumstances you only read about in melodramatic romance novels or see in teen dramas like degrassi, but we're doing awesome now. our relationship is about us and nobody else. everybody and their mother (literally) has been like, "finally, you guys!" (seriously- pretty much everyone we know saw it coming, even before we did.) it's great to be dating your best friend, really.
i guess that's it. i hope you guys are all doing well. peace.