On the verge of something.....I think.
You remember when you were younger, when something big happened in your life that you look back on today and you say to yourself, "It was from that moment on that I started ______ or I realized that I ______________"? I feel like I'm close to ending one chapter and starting another. I don't know how else to explain it. Intuition I guess. I hope I can find a roommate for August....and everything after.
SO I was doing this random mock interview for this fake job for my career planning course today and the guy interviewing me for the non-existent position asked me what I thought my greatest achievment was. - I thought about it and couldn't come up with a definitive answer, but one thing kept screaming itself in my head. It was a relatively small achievment comparatively but I just felt so overwhelming proud of it that I told him.
- I told him that one of my greatest achievments was playing an open mic night at the Roux House downtown. I said that looking back, the fact that I took control of my musical pursuits in the face of historic failures and buildups to letdowns was one moment in my life where I can truly say I succeeded. And no doubt, the crowd dug Josh way more than me that night (I think I came off as a strange, annoying, silly kid with a soft side, a twisted side, a ? side, and a guitar) but despite that, after being in band after band with no luck of playing live, I just said "I can do it". and I did. That was a good night.
Circa November 2007
SETLISTS
Josh S. - Slide: Goo Goo Dolls The Freshman: The Verve Pipe 3 Originals
Coleman W. - Sullivan Street: Counting Crows Where Did You Sleep Last Night?: Nirvana
1 Original (14 sec delay loop w/ strange lead work)
School:My goal is to not flip you off when I leave. Why so angry?
"Can we go back to the time, the age, where leaves and concrete mixed so beautifully with your crouched form? 3 walls surround and one exit to a life laced with litanies of last dances and coffee table romances."
I got an hour.....so.....
When was the last time a song moved you to tears? Mine was last night. Strangely enough, at 30,000 ft. I was coming back from California. There's this song on the new Counting Crows album called "On A Tuesday in Amsterdam Long Ago". Adam's talking about a girl as usual. (honestly, I don't mind that that's pretty much all he sings about) but something about this song just hit me. He speaks as if this story he's telling takes place at a time when his life wasn't so screwed up. When he's younger and when he hasn't tasted fame yet. There's this character he keeps bringing up in his songs named Maria. I have no idea if she's a work of fiction or an actual person or a representation of an actual person but she's prominent in his lyrics. I couldn't help but picture the girl in this song, the "bareback rider far from home" was her. And I couldn't help but picture that out of every woman he's ever felt for, used, been used by, etc. that she held this place in his heart that has refused to leave since the day he met her. All this is backed by a hopeless sounding piano with no resolve anywhere in sight. The chorus is simply "Come back to me". There's a zillion songs about guys or girls wanting their former love to come back to them. You know, "Baby, Baby! I'm sorry, I've done wrong! I want you back baby!" kinda stuff. Something about this line coupled with the vague legend of Maria painted this incredibly bleak, sorrowful picture for me. That long ago, two screw ups found each other and impacted each other so much that they'd couldn't forget each other if they tried. And somehow, either by willfull separation or death they split. The killer is that till this day, a couple of decades down the road, tons of relationships later, his heart's still saying "Come back to me". It's like no matter what he does, he can't shut off this still small voice in his heart. My mind wandered. A tear dropped. I didn't understand. I tried to search my mind to see if there was some person in my subconscious that I was relating to unawares but I couldn't place it. I didn't have anyone to scream "come back to me" to. I think the reality comes with the age. Screaming something like that to a recent break up doesn't really hold a candle to someone who's been screaming the same thing for the majority of their lives. It was a strange experience. Of course, all that's speculation. I'll probably never know the true meaning of the song or if it's even about a real person or not. All I know is that I can think up some pretty bleak scenarios.
The song after that, the last song, was really happy and kinda made you feel like, "ya know, it sucks, but life goes on" kinda feeling. I know that feeling. Good thing it's there or we'd be stuck in our emotional quagmires for eternity.
Jesus made Micheal Palmer and Andrew Friedrichs, and so that he should be commended.
"Party in 209! Spring Break 08 B****!"
"The coy is going to come and suck your face off"
"I can't wait to be blind tomorrow!"
"BLAINE, ROLL THE FREAKIN DICE!"
"Whoa-awww. Whoa-awww. WhoaAHHH DIDYOUSEEITWASSOCLOSEOMG!!!!"
"What does that steak look like to you?"
"HIT THE BALL!"
oh yeah......ZOMBIES! THEY'RE EVERYWHERE!!!!! can't freakin WAIT for the premiere.
that's my attempt at poetic. I love you kids alot. - the end (OR IS IT?!)
SO I was doing this random mock interview for this fake job for my career planning course today and the guy interviewing me for the non-existent position asked me what I thought my greatest achievment was. - I thought about it and couldn't come up with a definitive answer, but one thing kept screaming itself in my head. It was a relatively small achievment comparatively but I just felt so overwhelming proud of it that I told him.
- I told him that one of my greatest achievments was playing an open mic night at the Roux House downtown. I said that looking back, the fact that I took control of my musical pursuits in the face of historic failures and buildups to letdowns was one moment in my life where I can truly say I succeeded. And no doubt, the crowd dug Josh way more than me that night (I think I came off as a strange, annoying, silly kid with a soft side, a twisted side, a ? side, and a guitar) but despite that, after being in band after band with no luck of playing live, I just said "I can do it". and I did. That was a good night.
Circa November 2007
SETLISTS
Josh S. - Slide: Goo Goo Dolls The Freshman: The Verve Pipe 3 Originals
Coleman W. - Sullivan Street: Counting Crows Where Did You Sleep Last Night?: Nirvana
1 Original (14 sec delay loop w/ strange lead work)
School:My goal is to not flip you off when I leave. Why so angry?
"Can we go back to the time, the age, where leaves and concrete mixed so beautifully with your crouched form? 3 walls surround and one exit to a life laced with litanies of last dances and coffee table romances."
I got an hour.....so.....
When was the last time a song moved you to tears? Mine was last night. Strangely enough, at 30,000 ft. I was coming back from California. There's this song on the new Counting Crows album called "On A Tuesday in Amsterdam Long Ago". Adam's talking about a girl as usual. (honestly, I don't mind that that's pretty much all he sings about) but something about this song just hit me. He speaks as if this story he's telling takes place at a time when his life wasn't so screwed up. When he's younger and when he hasn't tasted fame yet. There's this character he keeps bringing up in his songs named Maria. I have no idea if she's a work of fiction or an actual person or a representation of an actual person but she's prominent in his lyrics. I couldn't help but picture the girl in this song, the "bareback rider far from home" was her. And I couldn't help but picture that out of every woman he's ever felt for, used, been used by, etc. that she held this place in his heart that has refused to leave since the day he met her. All this is backed by a hopeless sounding piano with no resolve anywhere in sight. The chorus is simply "Come back to me". There's a zillion songs about guys or girls wanting their former love to come back to them. You know, "Baby, Baby! I'm sorry, I've done wrong! I want you back baby!" kinda stuff. Something about this line coupled with the vague legend of Maria painted this incredibly bleak, sorrowful picture for me. That long ago, two screw ups found each other and impacted each other so much that they'd couldn't forget each other if they tried. And somehow, either by willfull separation or death they split. The killer is that till this day, a couple of decades down the road, tons of relationships later, his heart's still saying "Come back to me". It's like no matter what he does, he can't shut off this still small voice in his heart. My mind wandered. A tear dropped. I didn't understand. I tried to search my mind to see if there was some person in my subconscious that I was relating to unawares but I couldn't place it. I didn't have anyone to scream "come back to me" to. I think the reality comes with the age. Screaming something like that to a recent break up doesn't really hold a candle to someone who's been screaming the same thing for the majority of their lives. It was a strange experience. Of course, all that's speculation. I'll probably never know the true meaning of the song or if it's even about a real person or not. All I know is that I can think up some pretty bleak scenarios.
The song after that, the last song, was really happy and kinda made you feel like, "ya know, it sucks, but life goes on" kinda feeling. I know that feeling. Good thing it's there or we'd be stuck in our emotional quagmires for eternity.
Jesus made Micheal Palmer and Andrew Friedrichs, and so that he should be commended.
"Party in 209! Spring Break 08 B****!"
"The coy is going to come and suck your face off"
"I can't wait to be blind tomorrow!"
"BLAINE, ROLL THE FREAKIN DICE!"
"Whoa-awww. Whoa-awww. WhoaAHHH DIDYOUSEEITWASSOCLOSEOMG!!!!"
"What does that steak look like to you?"
"HIT THE BALL!"
oh yeah......ZOMBIES! THEY'RE EVERYWHERE!!!!! can't freakin WAIT for the premiere.
that's my attempt at poetic. I love you kids alot. - the end (OR IS IT?!)