When I end the refrain, I draw blood.
jeezum pizzas, i'm gone a couple of months from the livejournal fold and people are dying on the inside and kaitlyn freakin saw harry potter's "magic wand" if you know what i'm saying.
Alright guys. I'm back to give you one large life altering journal entry that will solve all your respective problems so just chill the frik out. i've got it under control.
don't kill me....
SO I haven't typed anything for a while, let's recap the past couple of months......
*Dawson season 3-4 = DONE! me and blaine are getting close to the end. something tells me there's going to be alot of "hey...ummmm....can..I..talk to you for a minute?" moments ahead. heh. that really is a highlight of my life at the moment.
*schools freakin over. My grades turned out alot better than I thought they would. I remember praying something like, "If you could do this, that's all I really need, but you are God and any higher would be rediculously awesome." God is cool. God is awesome. school is not.
*battling the demons screaming at me, confusing me. learning to put the quest for a significant other/whatever on the backburner. learning to put friendship before it. i feel like meeting someone and automatically pursuing them isn't such a good idea anymore. it's like, how do you know you want to date them if you don't even know them? i want to go into new friendships....with girls.....without an ulterior motive from now on. i feel like that's kinda sneaky and i don't like it. if something sparks, then rock it, but don't let the hope for that be hte only thing driving you to wanting to know this person more. after a while of being introduced to the world of relationships, i'm still learning. i like it. (remember: picnic shirt!)
*work work work work work. it's summer again which means no school which means full time which means 6 daze a week 8 hours a day which means tiredness which means more money which means more that i'm able to save up which means i can have more money to move out with. the first week of working full time was really tough because i haven't worked that many days straight in a long time so i had to get used to it again. very monotonous, but i'm used to it now.
*counting the days to the return to JH. i'm really excited. i'm really really excited. I can't wait but i'm waiting right now so i guess i can wait. I've been praying that God would show me something/someone incredible and new and different and life changing this summer. I'm really excited because I know God is great at suprising me with stuff. I hope I notice this thing/whatever. Something tells me I'm not going to miss it in my lifetime. and i'm equally pumped about working again in CHEF BOB'S KITCHEN OF DOOM!!!! and eating his insanely great food, and sleepin on that incredibly comfy sofa in the staff lounge.
*been trying to start a band still. asking people if they know anyone who'd want to start one. not too much success there yet. i think i should post flyers, i don't know if that would be very effective. is there a place where people that want to start a band congregate to wait for people to come by and hand out flyers?
*i'm re-reading Cyrano de Bergerac, my favorite book. It left such an impression on me but re-reading it is bringing back all the memories of why I love this book so much. Cyrano is the freaking man. The way he shows these people up so effortlessly. Like the time he fights Valvert while composing a ballad, promising at the end of each stanza that "When I end the refrain, I draw blood." Valvert doesn't touch him the whole time while he's composing this impromptu ballad and at the end he pricks him with his rapier. HOW AWESOME! I feel lame typing in all caps and the lone exclamation point. i feel like a 45 year old woman who is just learning how to type but that's how i feel about that book. IT IS FREAKIN AWESOME! And what about the time that Cyrano fights off the 100 men trying to kill Ligniere? and all the goofy characters like Ragueneau who goes bankrupt because he accepts poems as payment for his pastries more than actual money. and Christian, the handsome doofus. and the whole time Cyrano is helping Christian win Roxanne's heart, he's only doing it because he loves her and he knows that she's in love with Christian so he sacrifices his desire to make her happy. and THEN at the end he freakin tells her it was him that wrote those letters during the war all along but DIES 3 MINUTES LATER!!! PLUS, AS HE DIES HE PULLS OUT HIS SWORD AND PRETENDS TO FIGHT DEATH!!!! HARD-FREAKIN-CORE! God bless this Son of Gascony. Cyrano is my literary hero. the freakin end.
*yeah, kaitlyn westerhosen, if you're reading this, i ask you.....have you passed the casual liking of harry potter that you are compelled to see the full kit and kaboodle? just a question kait the lyb. i find that funny.
you make me wanna death-kill, on the kitchen on the floor....blah lallalalalal.
Alright guys. I'm back to give you one large life altering journal entry that will solve all your respective problems so just chill the frik out. i've got it under control.
don't kill me....
SO I haven't typed anything for a while, let's recap the past couple of months......
*Dawson season 3-4 = DONE! me and blaine are getting close to the end. something tells me there's going to be alot of "hey...ummmm....can..I..talk to you for a minute?" moments ahead. heh. that really is a highlight of my life at the moment.
*schools freakin over. My grades turned out alot better than I thought they would. I remember praying something like, "If you could do this, that's all I really need, but you are God and any higher would be rediculously awesome." God is cool. God is awesome. school is not.
*battling the demons screaming at me, confusing me. learning to put the quest for a significant other/whatever on the backburner. learning to put friendship before it. i feel like meeting someone and automatically pursuing them isn't such a good idea anymore. it's like, how do you know you want to date them if you don't even know them? i want to go into new friendships....with girls.....without an ulterior motive from now on. i feel like that's kinda sneaky and i don't like it. if something sparks, then rock it, but don't let the hope for that be hte only thing driving you to wanting to know this person more. after a while of being introduced to the world of relationships, i'm still learning. i like it. (remember: picnic shirt!)
*work work work work work. it's summer again which means no school which means full time which means 6 daze a week 8 hours a day which means tiredness which means more money which means more that i'm able to save up which means i can have more money to move out with. the first week of working full time was really tough because i haven't worked that many days straight in a long time so i had to get used to it again. very monotonous, but i'm used to it now.
*counting the days to the return to JH. i'm really excited. i'm really really excited. I can't wait but i'm waiting right now so i guess i can wait. I've been praying that God would show me something/someone incredible and new and different and life changing this summer. I'm really excited because I know God is great at suprising me with stuff. I hope I notice this thing/whatever. Something tells me I'm not going to miss it in my lifetime. and i'm equally pumped about working again in CHEF BOB'S KITCHEN OF DOOM!!!! and eating his insanely great food, and sleepin on that incredibly comfy sofa in the staff lounge.
*been trying to start a band still. asking people if they know anyone who'd want to start one. not too much success there yet. i think i should post flyers, i don't know if that would be very effective. is there a place where people that want to start a band congregate to wait for people to come by and hand out flyers?
*i'm re-reading Cyrano de Bergerac, my favorite book. It left such an impression on me but re-reading it is bringing back all the memories of why I love this book so much. Cyrano is the freaking man. The way he shows these people up so effortlessly. Like the time he fights Valvert while composing a ballad, promising at the end of each stanza that "When I end the refrain, I draw blood." Valvert doesn't touch him the whole time while he's composing this impromptu ballad and at the end he pricks him with his rapier. HOW AWESOME! I feel lame typing in all caps and the lone exclamation point. i feel like a 45 year old woman who is just learning how to type but that's how i feel about that book. IT IS FREAKIN AWESOME! And what about the time that Cyrano fights off the 100 men trying to kill Ligniere? and all the goofy characters like Ragueneau who goes bankrupt because he accepts poems as payment for his pastries more than actual money. and Christian, the handsome doofus. and the whole time Cyrano is helping Christian win Roxanne's heart, he's only doing it because he loves her and he knows that she's in love with Christian so he sacrifices his desire to make her happy. and THEN at the end he freakin tells her it was him that wrote those letters during the war all along but DIES 3 MINUTES LATER!!! PLUS, AS HE DIES HE PULLS OUT HIS SWORD AND PRETENDS TO FIGHT DEATH!!!! HARD-FREAKIN-CORE! God bless this Son of Gascony. Cyrano is my literary hero. the freakin end.
*yeah, kaitlyn westerhosen, if you're reading this, i ask you.....have you passed the casual liking of harry potter that you are compelled to see the full kit and kaboodle? just a question kait the lyb. i find that funny.
you make me wanna death-kill, on the kitchen on the floor....blah lallalalalal.