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I've gotta quit wasting my time here... I have every oppertunity to suceed in Tampa, with my father going to college, but, I'm wasting my time as a stipper, livin in the ghetto, here. I don't know why I have such a nac for thowing my life away. This guy is like every other guy, I care about him so much I'd stay here and try to make it work even though my life is miserable, he just cares about me when it's convienent and he isn't busy breaking my heart telling me how much he loves me and how I'd leave a hole in his life if he were never to see me again. I've told him how much he hurts me and he says he doesn't want it to be like that but then he pulls shit like last night just to be a dick. "You can stand outside and listen if you really love the band that much, Dawn." I have never been more insulted in my life!!!! He makes me wanna spit on people I like cause I'm so pissed with him.... PPPTTTWWWAAAAAA. GO FUCK OFF. I'm cheching into auto parts to fix my car so i can drive away from this hell... i'm looking into airplane tickets for 1person 2dogs one way... hell, if greyhound will let me i snag up my mutts and be gone before next month. Since thats still some time away tho I wanted to go to the National Grants Conferance.. who are in Indianapolis for the next week or so but I've noone to go with... with I had smart friends who wanted to get grants start businesses and buy their own homes.... to bad I live in small, little, hill-billy, white-trash, podunk, Indiana. fun shit!