Oh well, just cuz nobody is listening (also in myspace)
My ex Tom got someone pregnant while he was still my boyfriend. I'm truly broken... confused... hurt... lost... I have known about it for probly a month now, I found out while we were still seeing each other. I can't seem to shake this horrible broken heart. I can only describe it as that. Nothing tastes good to a broken heart, nothing is fun anymore for a broken heart, and noone can seem to make a broken heart smile. I sat in the bath tub and cried for about a half an hour today... maybe for my broken heart... I thought "Man, I really wish I could kill him for how bad this hurts." and cried and cried.... (don't try to shave your legs while you're crying)
I was suppose to see this guy I've been seeing since Tom and I have been having a serious break up, probly a couple of months ago, maybe late late May. He's a total flake, set up nights to see me then stand me up. How fucking annoying is that? Then he comes to my work all trashed, acting like he doesn't understand what I see in him. He even went as far as to say "I look like Pauly Shore, why are you so turned on by me?" What the Fuck am I thinking??? Seriously, I guess I never thought about it but he kind of does look like Pauly Shore. Fucking Creepy! Funniest part is he actually made plans with me and stood me up again tonight. I'm an idiot. A lonely Idiot.
Break ups suck. Rebounds suck. Relationships suck. Most of the time the sex sucks. I mean, man, I love sex, when did eveyone get so bad at it?Work only make all this worse, it's hard to be lonely and pretend you're interested in what some guy with a 20$ is talking about... fuck you and your 5$, Tell me why my phones not ringing off the fucking hook if I'm so beautiful, sexy, funny, smart, worldly, etc., etc. Maybe I'm a biotch? I hope not... I figure, if I were that bad I'd have no friends but my friends have really tried to be there for me this last month or so. Some people have just been tryin to get laid, you know who you are, you're an asshole!
I was suppose to see this guy I've been seeing since Tom and I have been having a serious break up, probly a couple of months ago, maybe late late May. He's a total flake, set up nights to see me then stand me up. How fucking annoying is that? Then he comes to my work all trashed, acting like he doesn't understand what I see in him. He even went as far as to say "I look like Pauly Shore, why are you so turned on by me?" What the Fuck am I thinking??? Seriously, I guess I never thought about it but he kind of does look like Pauly Shore. Fucking Creepy! Funniest part is he actually made plans with me and stood me up again tonight. I'm an idiot. A lonely Idiot.
Break ups suck. Rebounds suck. Relationships suck. Most of the time the sex sucks. I mean, man, I love sex, when did eveyone get so bad at it?Work only make all this worse, it's hard to be lonely and pretend you're interested in what some guy with a 20$ is talking about... fuck you and your 5$, Tell me why my phones not ringing off the fucking hook if I'm so beautiful, sexy, funny, smart, worldly, etc., etc. Maybe I'm a biotch? I hope not... I figure, if I were that bad I'd have no friends but my friends have really tried to be there for me this last month or so. Some people have just been tryin to get laid, you know who you are, you're an asshole!