Life after it all
So its been awhile, but I am finally settled again and able to talk.
I got out of rehab and was home for the holidays and all of that good stuff, woopdido really. I was engaed to Matt still, that was happy. So you ask, where have I been for the last 6 months?
I worked and lived in Chicago again with Matt and I was doing well for myself. But then things got hard and I started wanting to just go to clubs and have fun and Matt was holding me back from it, which was a good thing, but didnt last.
I wound up losing him because I was losing myself in his eyes. Thats how he put it anyway. Basically because I couldnt gain control of myself, he couldnt deal and he left. Well somewhere in there I realized I wasnt actually having all the fun anymore and I wasnt being responsible, and I wanted to have a life not some death sentence.
So in April I went after Matt, it had been 3 months, but I did it. Turns out he was still hung up on me and waiting for me to return, and ready to give up. I was just in time I guess, funny how things work out. So we are back together, not engaged, we decided it was too much too soon.
So now I am happy with him, holding a job, having a great life. We have a beautiful house and I visit my mom frequently, or she comes to me rather. We travel a lot too, its awesome I really love airplanes. Matt is working for his dads company and he loves it, or seems to, and says he is happy so I am happy. And of course I, being the horny "I want to have sex all the time" person I am, I have my way and we do have sex a LOT. We do it a lot in all sorts of places and ways. I havent turned him onto the idea of a threesome yet, but I will. Oh I love him! And he is enough for me.
I want to have a baby. I know, Im only, well 20, and I should wait until we get married but boy oh boy do I just want to have a baby. A baby from me and him and its our love right there in this little bundle of crying, slobbering, cute joy. <3 My heart beats crazy just thinkin of it. But alas I shall wait to have the babies. Besides I have all these fun sex years to get out of my way.
-Sam
I got out of rehab and was home for the holidays and all of that good stuff, woopdido really. I was engaed to Matt still, that was happy. So you ask, where have I been for the last 6 months?
I worked and lived in Chicago again with Matt and I was doing well for myself. But then things got hard and I started wanting to just go to clubs and have fun and Matt was holding me back from it, which was a good thing, but didnt last.
I wound up losing him because I was losing myself in his eyes. Thats how he put it anyway. Basically because I couldnt gain control of myself, he couldnt deal and he left. Well somewhere in there I realized I wasnt actually having all the fun anymore and I wasnt being responsible, and I wanted to have a life not some death sentence.
So in April I went after Matt, it had been 3 months, but I did it. Turns out he was still hung up on me and waiting for me to return, and ready to give up. I was just in time I guess, funny how things work out. So we are back together, not engaged, we decided it was too much too soon.
So now I am happy with him, holding a job, having a great life. We have a beautiful house and I visit my mom frequently, or she comes to me rather. We travel a lot too, its awesome I really love airplanes. Matt is working for his dads company and he loves it, or seems to, and says he is happy so I am happy. And of course I, being the horny "I want to have sex all the time" person I am, I have my way and we do have sex a LOT. We do it a lot in all sorts of places and ways. I havent turned him onto the idea of a threesome yet, but I will. Oh I love him! And he is enough for me.
I want to have a baby. I know, Im only, well 20, and I should wait until we get married but boy oh boy do I just want to have a baby. A baby from me and him and its our love right there in this little bundle of crying, slobbering, cute joy. <3 My heart beats crazy just thinkin of it. But alas I shall wait to have the babies. Besides I have all these fun sex years to get out of my way.
-Sam