but i like him ever so much
Well lets jsut say im so confused about my "love" life.Where do i begin?..well this past week hasnt been the greatest, and i have been kinda upset the other day i saw david and when i saw him it made me think twice.Im not saying anything is gonna happen but i jsut thought about all the memories and so manny things were going through my head it was spining.All day i got worked up and i guess i was over thinking but i got this empty feeling inside and i hadnt got that since "the day my life ended".incase you didnt know that ment the day he broke up with me".Horible ,horible i say..but joey isnt excatly rockin my world right now eaither lets jsut say hes been acting wired toward me lately or to but it in other words hes giveing off a vibe that hes looseing interest in me but im not sure consideering the fact i didnt get a chance to talk to him when he called me because he hung up on me. and for such a silly bullshit reason the reason was that he droped the phone and it hung up..i dont get it im not trying to make a big deal out of this but i feel the need to say something.OKay after he hung up on me i went online and then he was on and and after min and min waiting for him to im me he did and he said" sorry for hanging up on you i droped the phone and it hung up".. a) why couldnt he call back and b) today he told megan that he doesnt always feel the need to talk to me all the time.Okay i dont get why he couldnt come to me and tell me this not to mention im his own girlfriend.I wouldve thought he would at least have the decencey to talk to me and tell me himself or something he ignored me again today or in his case "didnt feel the need to talk to me" and acted like nothings wrong.. i guess the way i feel doesnt really matter.Well i dont think im gonna be able to put up with this imatureite because im not use to it and the way hes been acting lately has been makeing me feel like shiiittt!!.Well the time will come and i wont look back..if you know what i mean.
p.s i guess me trying to let go of something i used to love so much didnt really work.I reallized that me trying to make things go back to the way things used to be didnt really go the way i thought it could..yeah dont get me wrong i like joey ever so dearly hes the only person ive had strong feelings about since david and the last thing i want is for us to break up, i jsut wish i could talk to him without feeling like im wasteing my breath.But i guess ill never get anything solved blableing on..i HOPE THINGS WORK OUT FOR THE BEST!!
memories last forever. jsut trying to get rid of them takes even longer..
♥ shay shay