love me two times
lately all i've been listening to is jimmy. i love it. i need to get the who cds back from doug. i would love love love more than anything to listen to them right about now as well.
spain countdown is in progress. 24 days
this weekend would have been on the shit list of weekends if it wasnt the last high school party with all my senior friends. i thought that was very sentimental. everything else about it sucked royally. all i wanted to do was drive five minutes to ryans house but, to semi intoxicated lisa, ryan never invited me.
but apparently he did?
sad night.
i spoke with Will today face to face for the first time in about exactly 1 year. the results of the conversation would be me realizing it is about time for something amazing to happen to me. i deserve it by now. i've dealt with the creeps, weirdos, cheaters, confused, and confusING. i also realized that only the select few of us have morals, and i am one of them. unfortunatly it isn't satisfying, actually, it's depressing and degrading to hook up with any random joe. it just isn't the same if there is something between the two of you. not a relationship- EVERYONE knows how terrible those are to me- but i just find it terribly difficult to see myself doing that. is that sooo bad
basically, if it would happen my way,i would see you more than once a month.
spain countdown is in progress. 24 days
this weekend would have been on the shit list of weekends if it wasnt the last high school party with all my senior friends. i thought that was very sentimental. everything else about it sucked royally. all i wanted to do was drive five minutes to ryans house but, to semi intoxicated lisa, ryan never invited me.
but apparently he did?
sad night.
i spoke with Will today face to face for the first time in about exactly 1 year. the results of the conversation would be me realizing it is about time for something amazing to happen to me. i deserve it by now. i've dealt with the creeps, weirdos, cheaters, confused, and confusING. i also realized that only the select few of us have morals, and i am one of them. unfortunatly it isn't satisfying, actually, it's depressing and degrading to hook up with any random joe. it just isn't the same if there is something between the two of you. not a relationship- EVERYONE knows how terrible those are to me- but i just find it terribly difficult to see myself doing that. is that sooo bad
basically, if it would happen my way,i would see you more than once a month.