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its the first time ive been on the computer in at least 2 wks and nobody emails me nemore its like im dead to the world even the ppl i see everyday its like the only time ppl will talk to me nemore is when i get them something or if they have a problem and need someone to talk to like i want to hear their problems my best friend hardly ever talks to me nemore and every time i talk to her she gets aggrevated even when im just standing near her of course she was nice to me today bc i bought her a rose and a card last night and gave it to her this mornin shows how good of a friend she is i swear i just want to fall off the face of the earth but i cant do that bc mr farris will get mad if he has to change the band show again we wouldnt want that now would we i dont even know why i even try nemore the only good thing about my life right now is my sister and i are gettin along really well if only ppl would listen maybe i wouldnt feel this way but that wont happen everybodys too caught up in themselves to even care how i feel exc trysh shell listen but i dont like tellin her how i feel i wish i had a friend that i can trust and be able to talk to and will listen but all i have is this damn journal for everybody to read and the ppl that i love and i thought loved me dont even talk to me nemore like grace i love her to death i would die for her bc she is the one friend i care about the most but im just gonna have to stop talkin to her bc the only time she talks to me nemore is when nobody else is around its like she all of a sudden thinks she better than me and she may be but she doesnt have to act like shes holier than thou im gonna tell her that tomorrow too im just gonna stop talkin to all my friends maybe then they will realize that im not in the best state of mind for them to make me feel inferior to them well im gonna go hope you get this through ur damn heads and stop actin so holy