Immaturity = Good?
Every time I look into my past I find some reason to be embarrassed. Whether its my usage of some really ridiculous terms like "myn" instead of "mine" or some vague obsession over the field of relasionships, I never cease to find a reason to blush. The funny thing is, last year I was going over my journal entries and whatnot and being embarrassed by them, and I swore to myself that I'd never be embarrassed by anything I wrote from that point on again.
Now I'm bored and going through past emails, and lo and behod, I begin wondering what the hell I was thinking writing some of them. Once again oodles of immaturity bursts through the seems of my writing, and I again wonder how immature I am now, as compared to last year, as compared to what I'm going to be a year from now. The picture that symbolizes me and my LJ is still the same, I dont need to change that, but it seems that every year I approach some vague refinement, but I dont even know what that refinement is.
I suppose the more I think about it, the better this all is. I've always thought of myself as having a rather bad experience in Grade/Middle school, and the fact that I somewhat "grew up" in high school may be a sign that my overall progression to maturity is developing at the same rate as everyone elses, just happening a bit later, or something like that. I wish I knew when it was all going to be over though :x
Now I'm bored and going through past emails, and lo and behod, I begin wondering what the hell I was thinking writing some of them. Once again oodles of immaturity bursts through the seems of my writing, and I again wonder how immature I am now, as compared to last year, as compared to what I'm going to be a year from now. The picture that symbolizes me and my LJ is still the same, I dont need to change that, but it seems that every year I approach some vague refinement, but I dont even know what that refinement is.
I suppose the more I think about it, the better this all is. I've always thought of myself as having a rather bad experience in Grade/Middle school, and the fact that I somewhat "grew up" in high school may be a sign that my overall progression to maturity is developing at the same rate as everyone elses, just happening a bit later, or something like that. I wish I knew when it was all going to be over though :x