Just so tired...

[cantofox]

It's over... no more charade... no more. It's over between me and Michael.... I wasn't willing to be a liability to him in thew Air Force anymore. Apparently Tiger wolf has all this power over every aspect of the military that he could have him outed for any fucking reason at all. So yeah, if I;m not good enough and Silver isn't willing to fight to prove that isn't so. He still talks to Tigerwolf... I also found out that I would call him sometimes and that he would look at his phone... see that it was me and just say “I don't feel like talking to him”.... wow... thanks. I apparently am just an add on to his dream in life... he just wants to take care of things himself... I tried so hard to get him to let me help and he wont let me... and he wont fight... I'm just tired. I am tired of all of this. I really do love Silver with all my heart and soul, but I just can't be that much of a risk for him. All I want is for him to be happy... his happiness is to own a wolf sanctuary and to design his own video game... fine. If you and I can still be together after you achieve all you want in life then fine, we can start from there... but I'm not going to worry about you night and day for you to not open up to me just because I can;t be stoic about how I feel about us. I think Silver, you have a lot of growing up to do, you have a lot to think about. The only way I can see you to do that effectively is by yourself. You need to not worry about me anymore and I can;t worry about you. Look on the bright side buddy, now Tigerwolf can't do anything. He scared you... you ran away, don't tell me you didn't. You had the chance to really stand up for us and you failed to do so, that I can't deal with.
I only wanted you to be happy... I wished to god that your happiness included me... but it doesn't. I hope you and Tigerwolf are happy together because I just can't see how you being with anyone but him will make things go well for you, he has too much power. Have a good life Michael... I'll miss you and will always love you.

May all your days end with pie.

Brandon Toussaint