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So, I spoke about that coffee-date-thing. Remember? Yeah, I think I got the blow-off today. I could be wrong, but don't I always say this because I'm too big a pussy to say, "Hey, what's the situation here? I like you. Do you like me, too? Because I don't want to waste my time and emotions while you beat around the bush trying to get rid of me."
Anyhow, I won't go into the specifics, but he basically said he doesn't have time for me right now. Granted, this is probably totally legit, but he wasn't very definitive about how he wanted to handle it once he did have time again. I don't know.
So, in any event, if I'm right about this situation, I find myself feeling the same way I did a little more than two years ago. I was at the end of a relationship and went to spend the night with Candace and Aaron. I woke up the next morning feeling pretty bad and left them a note. It said something to the effect that I was feeling like I had out-lived my usefulness when it comes to relationships. I was just too old and settled-down to be wanted.
Things got better, but then I started feeling that way again once I made the move to Chicago. This situation (if it is one) and the one with Aaron a few months back have just fueled it. I'm beginning to wonder what the point is of having someone to love in that special way, someone to wake up to in the morning, even someone to have sex with. I mean, I can do that on my own, you know? And I have people in my life that complete me and make me feel wanted, even though they don't fill the a-fore-mentioned "needs."
So, I ask you, what's the point?
Yeah, I know this isn't a very positive way to look at life, but perhaps I'm not feeling like a very positive person today. Just perhaps.
Anyhow, I won't go into the specifics, but he basically said he doesn't have time for me right now. Granted, this is probably totally legit, but he wasn't very definitive about how he wanted to handle it once he did have time again. I don't know.
So, in any event, if I'm right about this situation, I find myself feeling the same way I did a little more than two years ago. I was at the end of a relationship and went to spend the night with Candace and Aaron. I woke up the next morning feeling pretty bad and left them a note. It said something to the effect that I was feeling like I had out-lived my usefulness when it comes to relationships. I was just too old and settled-down to be wanted.
Things got better, but then I started feeling that way again once I made the move to Chicago. This situation (if it is one) and the one with Aaron a few months back have just fueled it. I'm beginning to wonder what the point is of having someone to love in that special way, someone to wake up to in the morning, even someone to have sex with. I mean, I can do that on my own, you know? And I have people in my life that complete me and make me feel wanted, even though they don't fill the a-fore-mentioned "needs."
So, I ask you, what's the point?
Yeah, I know this isn't a very positive way to look at life, but perhaps I'm not feeling like a very positive person today. Just perhaps.