alone for the holidays
I use to be able to not let that thought bother me. being alone for the holiday. I had never really had someone before to spend the holidays with so i never knew what i was really missing. Well i can say after the last two years i can officially say i don't like being alone on the holidays. it's rather depressing to be alone and know everyone is happy with there other doing what not and such. But here i sit alone. I need to focus on confidence and all the stuff women look for men. I would hope i can find someone anyone in a weeks time so i don't ring in the new year in my bed sleeping but i know better. Time can't move that fast and i just will have to deal with it. This is the price i am paying for my weight and and life to be alone. But I am fine. merry Christmas and happy new year if you guys don't see me before hand. not that anyone really reads my journal.