self-restraint, hot chocolate and a nap
he has this certain talent for coming up with lethal combinations that just kill me. that make him irresistable to me. i know that he does it on purpose, because it always seems just the thing to drive me crazy at eight a.m. i wish that i wasn't so timid and insecure and well, unattractive. i wish that for once, he would notice my gaze and get the point and fall in love with me. but i guess that i will (always) have to settle for looking and wanting.
today it was
The sidewalk bends where your house ends
Like the neighborhood is on its knees
You're surrounded by a chain-link fence
That keeps me out but lets me see
Well I come by most every night
The shutters pounding in the breeze
A clothesline strung like paper kites
That blow my words right back at me
But someday when my heart exhales
I'll tell you everything
Those sweet words spilling all about us
I'll say please please be with me
And I'll breathe so easily
But instead I'm turning blue
I look at you
And keep my stupid mouth shut
The hall light streams out through the screens
And the shadows capture me in webs
Just tangled up in what I've seen
And every word I have not said
I have not said
Cuz the sidewalk bends where your house ends
Like the neighborhood is on its knees