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Use all your power to free the senses from attachment and aversion alike, and live in the full wisdom of the Self. Such a sage awakes to light in the night of all creatures. That which the world calls day is the night of ignorance to the wise.
-Bhagavad Gita 2:68-69
I was having trouble with something. Leading people on without any real intentions...
So I thought about it long and hard and realized that I can only do what I know for sure makes me happy. And.. I can only go after what I want.
If some get hurt along the way... Eh. I know I will eventually get hurt too.
I can only feel bad for so long.
My little sister is so disappointed in me.
Look:
"if people i admire are so prone to disaster.
what does that say about me? i don't pretend to be a good person, but i'd like to think i won't betray my own morals.
why are we so damn vulnerable to temptation? "
I know I shouldn't have gone about things the way I did. I know I let myself down. Still, i don't really regret anything. My sister sees it as wrong for a different reason. She's comparing me to herself and her situation. Which... hello! are completely different. She's with someone she loves, and can't see herself wanting anyone else.
I'm with someone I don't know, who goes on tour all the time, and really.... apart from drumming and tattoos, I don't have much in common with.
Eventually she'll understand and love me again.
No matter how silly anyone thinks it is, her opinion of me matters more than that of 'Ak' or 'An' or anyone else.
The only thing I felt bad about was hurting tom.
And even then... I'm talking to James about that.
I know in an ideal situation, I'd go after someone without inhibitions. But honestly, guys apparently like the chase. So I'll show an interest, but not to the extent I want. We'll see what happens.
<3
-Bhagavad Gita 2:68-69
I was having trouble with something. Leading people on without any real intentions...
So I thought about it long and hard and realized that I can only do what I know for sure makes me happy. And.. I can only go after what I want.
If some get hurt along the way... Eh. I know I will eventually get hurt too.
I can only feel bad for so long.
My little sister is so disappointed in me.
Look:
"if people i admire are so prone to disaster.
what does that say about me? i don't pretend to be a good person, but i'd like to think i won't betray my own morals.
why are we so damn vulnerable to temptation? "
I know I shouldn't have gone about things the way I did. I know I let myself down. Still, i don't really regret anything. My sister sees it as wrong for a different reason. She's comparing me to herself and her situation. Which... hello! are completely different. She's with someone she loves, and can't see herself wanting anyone else.
I'm with someone I don't know, who goes on tour all the time, and really.... apart from drumming and tattoos, I don't have much in common with.
Eventually she'll understand and love me again.
No matter how silly anyone thinks it is, her opinion of me matters more than that of 'Ak' or 'An' or anyone else.
The only thing I felt bad about was hurting tom.
And even then... I'm talking to James about that.
I know in an ideal situation, I'd go after someone without inhibitions. But honestly, guys apparently like the chase. So I'll show an interest, but not to the extent I want. We'll see what happens.
<3