where did those crass band mornings go and the dreaming over tea

[logan_echolls]

Thank god, Veronica was actually serious about getting the PS2. The whole buying spree the two of us went on was fairly incredible. I'm pretty sure that, in general, the spending of money was far more enjoyable than anything we've done in the last few days

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[renewedsoul_v]

I closed my eyes and let out a slow breath before opening my eyes again, "I know you weren't actually around to witness some of the worst fighting between me and my dad, but trust me when I say it got worse after you left. More than once." I told him, "You know how important my Dad is to me. You saw what happened to my life when I chose to stand by him. Do you honestly believe for a second I would be so ready to fight him over you if you didn't mean at leas as much?" I asked quietly.

There was absolutely no way I would bother risking damage to the relationship I had with my father over a guy unless it was important. Unless I felt like things could really work. I wouldn't even challenge my dad, never mind sneak around behind his back unless it mattered. "Maybe I would've just listened to him last year, but I know how miserable I was without you. I don't want to go back to that." I added.

"The only way you're going to have miss me is if you plan on staying in Neptune when I go away to school." I promised him.

"I know that." I replied softly, sighing. "Look... I know you haven't changed. Do I wish I could count on the fact that you're not going to get shot or worse? Of course I do. But you know what? If it's going to happen it's going to happen... It might not even happen, so what's the point in making myself completely miserable when we both know I want to be with you?" I asked.

I was really wondering how I thought breaking up with him was going to solve anything. It didn't make him realise that what he was doing could end up with him dead. All it did was break both of our hearts. It was completely pointless.

I wasn't going back to that. The whole time we were apart we were horrible to each other because we couldn't bare to act like we actually loved each other... actually being with him was much better in comparison.

"I'm the one who changed. I'm the one who grew up and realised that if I don't let fear rule the rest of my life I shouldn't let it keep us apart." I insisted.

[logan_echolls]

“You don’t need to prove anything to me,” I insisted. Or at least not how close she was with her dad. I had been there when she decided to screw all her friends over by siding with her dad about Jake Kane being some sort of murderer. Jake Kane might have been a screw up and a cheater, but there was no way a man like him could have murdered his own daughter. My father on the other hand… The point was I know that Veronica would not just throw her life away, her relationship with her dad away, for me on some stupid whim. I couldn’t possibly be a whim, but if you put it on the other hand it’s like we’re verging on some sort of till death do us part thing.

More than likely, mine.

And I can’t actually bring myself to think she was miserable without me. I just can’t think it when my best friend was the one she was with. I don’t know why it ticks me off, but it does and I lift my arm out from around her.

“Jesus Christ, Veronica,” I breathed. “You were with Duncan! And no matter how much he fucked up you stayed with him until he knocked up his ex. What did you do? Stay with him because it was convenient?”

If she was so damn miserable without me it was her own fault because I was there and I hadn’t gone away and it drives me crazy that she was the one to have left me. And I’m getting that she’s freely admitting that she made some sort of mistake, but how does it make it any better? How does it stop her from running scared again?

”And you know what? People get shot. They get in trouble and occasionally they die. Just because I flirt with trouble by pulling some stupid pranks doesn’t mean I’m the next in line. I mean, Lilly died and I’m not sure if I can even say that’s because of what she did.” Sleeping with my dad didn’t exactly warrant a killing - along with anything else she might have done. None of it had meant she deserved to die or that she would have because she did those things. “People die because of circumstances beyond their own control.”

We didn’t know what the hell was going to happen in the future.