he's not perfect.
i was so excited about having a boyfriend. i went overboard. i just.... i was so ready to be a good girlfriend. once i decided to quit smoking i figured that that meant everything was going to be perfect. and it was.. for exactly two days. valentines day and his birthday were incredible. and now that we're not trying to be romantic for a holiday i feel like crying every time i get of fthe phone with him. and it's not even his fault really. it's just.. i realized that he's not perfect. and i know i shouldn't but i hate him for it. he's not perfect and to me that says that i can't trust him. he's drunk every single day, every single night. and even though he's drunk he still remembers to call me. and even when he's out with his friends he still answers my calls. that's being a good boyfriend i know but.. one of the parties he was at his exgirlfrined was there to. he told me she came up to him to say happy birthday. if something happened he wouldn't have told me about it right? i know i should trust him its just that.. that's how james cheated on me the first time. he was drunk at a party and hooked up with his exgirlfriend. and i found out because it was at kats house. but tim wasn't at kats house. i don't know where he was. so i'd never find out if something really happened. i should just trust him. james didn't call me every single night. or ever mention that he saw his ex. tim did and he's not james so i should just trust him. why did i have to quit smoking if he can get durnk every night huh? i'm going to florida and not going to see him for a week. and i have this bad feeling that he's going to be calling me drunk every single night. and i'm ready for you to say i told you so, so be my guest.