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alright folks...when i left you, i had just purchased a new pair of gym shoes (which i have only worn once). and since then ive been to cali, my lake house, met a bunch of new people, lost touch with a bunch of new people, and had some crazy ups and downs with friends...phew.....thats a lot.
cali was fun, i probably was the one on the trip who wasnt as infatuated with being in california though, in fact it was kind of a bummer because i feel like we didnt really experiance a lot of california, dont get me wrong, days were PACT with sight seeing, mountain climbing, mountain biking, mountain boarding, kayaking...i mean we took it in, but nights were mellow and i felt almost clostraphobic from the living quarters we were in, there was no walking around, no getting away for urself, no 'i just want to walk away and think' time. you were always five feet away from another camper, and if u were just sitting there contimplating, it got interrupted fast. besides my complaints, i had a really good time. i had some inner-self problems tho, a lot of questions that i didnt feel welcomed to ask. i met a lot of cool cool people, and two really cool staff people...the cool cool people that i met live just on the other side of the track, but it seems that me and my little group of friends werent the interesting girls on the trip...everyone else has hung out with them since getting home but me and my group of girls....whatever. me and brig had a break down talk of how we felt about the camp and the program all together...in conclusion its a good hearted group with good intentions, but the intentions only follow through when everyone has the same mold of mind and no one really strays to any other conclusions.....cult life? i dont know, i support the group though so i dont know. that makes it two times in one month ive been to california...not a new record.
am i sounding drab in this entry? i feel drab...'down'...i dunno its been a weird couple of days back. i started looking at the company i keep, with one person in particular, you ever get the feeling that u put a lot of heart into something and they kinda shit all over it? i dunno we will see what happens.
the lake house was fun and a bust at the same time, big dramas, big fun times....so it evend out. it was good to see my brothers and my friends.
these past two days home home have been relaxing and absolutly crazy at the same time. my house is a mess. for those of you who didnt know, my house is being completely revamped and an addition is being put onto the back of our house. talk about tight living quarters and early wake up times...i thought camp was bad. every morning i wake up to drilling and hammering and wood getting ripped out of my house and being added on, i feel like i live at a construction sight (well i guess i do)...there is no more carpet or wood floors, just plywood everywhere, so its a must to wear shoes around. the only place that feels like home is this little sactuary where one of my computers is (theres still carpet =) )
tomarrow i start my new job at my aunts...im very excited, its going to be awesome and im going to make a butt load of money.
for now i have to go shopping with joe and my brother....thats the other thing, lately joe has seemed, um i dunno how to put this, like hes keeping something from me? everything i ask has no answer and sometimes he claims he "doesnt remember what he did the night before" i dont know, i guess ill find out sooner or later