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The past few days, weeks, maybe months I've been floating. When my eyes are closed I see candy stars. I grin stupidly to myself, lost in daydreams, and my dad asks me what the hell is so funny. I check my phone, facebook, IM hundreds of times in a day. I replay in my head those moments from this summer; I kiss my own hands and gaze into dark eyes in my memory. My god, it feels so good to be with him.
My god, I've caused such hurt.
I mean it every time I tell you I love you, but how can you believe someone so erratic and inconsistent? Remember?
Every time I see you we make mistakes.
I don't know what to do, except be honest with you now.
There's no one who's ever meant more to me than you.
I love you; God, I love you so much. Don't you see?
Love was recently defined to me as wanting the best for someone else. It's so deliciously simple, but at the same time so damn hard. So selfless.
As for being in love... it's almost the same. But now I know the difference.
My god, I've caused such hurt.
I mean it every time I tell you I love you, but how can you believe someone so erratic and inconsistent? Remember?
Every time I see you we make mistakes.
I don't know what to do, except be honest with you now.
There's no one who's ever meant more to me than you.
I love you; God, I love you so much. Don't you see?
Love was recently defined to me as wanting the best for someone else. It's so deliciously simple, but at the same time so damn hard. So selfless.
As for being in love... it's almost the same. But now I know the difference.