all kinda a good stuf!!! sarcasim
well, i feel like shit...
the mornin sucked,he read ks note and so he then goes and tells me that he's
'givvin up on trying to help ppl...(aimed at me) the why the fuck did you bother reading the note you ass hole.... well then during lunch he even made k cry, which ifelt kinda bad about, and i knew i couldnt help... but i went and got her an ice-cream... its the best i can do,and i cant do much... but yeah so i felt like shit the whole day... and the sad thing is... im still constatly finding myself thinking about him, i cant help it, i just miss him so much... i just loved the way i felt around him, and just thhe way he was so damn crazy, but w/e it dont matter anymore... or at least to him it dont.... well then the whole day i felt bad about that, and i still feel pretty sick... i feel like im gunna cough up a lung any min. now, but i guess its better then it was like 3-4 days ago, so thats good.... umm...
well Darring told me something the other day that was kinda crazy... and well it just really got me thinking... and it was like a real persinal thing, not something that he would really tell me... but well it got me thinking and i inda felt bad, cuz he told me that and like a few days earlyer, i kinda told someone eles that i liked them, and that i had from the beginging of the year, but really that isnt that important, cuz i cant tell you right now, that 'relationship' wont go anywere, cuz i'd feel too bad that someone eles didnt get to go out w/ him...well im sure this all seems kinda confuzing to some ppl.. but its not like you should be wasnting your time reading about my sucky life...
oh another thing, i think theres something really wrong w/ my meds or my head, or something, cuz i've been feeling like really weird latly.. like i space out really eaasyly, or i've been forgeting stuff, and i just get so confuzed really easy... like i'll be walking down the hall going to a class, and in like 2 seconds i'll just totaly forget were im goin, like what room it is, or even what class it is... if its lunch or if were leaving, idk but its been really fuckin me up latly... god its like, my body nows were its goin but my mind just dont wanna think, and it gets me so extreamly confuzed... darrin said something about it thismornin.. so i guess its not just me thinkin it.... idk, its kinda like someone eles takes over my body for like 2-3min, but i can see whats happining... and like, idk its really weird.... well ima shut up now.... and stop wasting time....
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