When your heart runs deeper than a ghost town goldmine...
Growing up.
Scary, isn't it?
Where did my childhood go? Where did that time of innocence, sunshine, and freedom go? More importantly, when did it go? Whenever it went, I missed my goodbye.
It's funny how a single song can bring back so much. How listening to Big & Rich will always remind me of Erin and our crazy adventures at the beach. Where the wind would whip through our hair as we drove down the highway, flip flops on, sunglasses protecting our eyes, and that inevitable smell of summer (and sometimes chickens) would fill the car. That trip to the beach was always one of the things that would get me through the school year. It was our "bonding" time haha, where we'd get to just be silly, she'd get to run around naked, and all of our worries would stay behind, for just one week.
I miss the summer. I miss how...nothing was right, but everything was right at the same time. Michelle and I had our passive aggressive fight haha, and I missed that girl, every day, but for every time I'd get down about it, I'd have Drew to lift me back up and remind me that if we really were best friends, things would all work themselves out in the end. And look at that, they did. I love you girly.
I miss driving through the country with Erin, blasting country music, peeing in fields, discovering Jimmie Cone, and just talking through everything. Talking through our fears, our doubts, and laughing endlessly about it all.
I miss having movie nights with Cathy. I miss seeing her smile, laugh, play, dance, cook, eat, and make fun of me haha. I miss our "memory" days, when we'd just get out all of our old games, and play, talk, and be sisters. I miss our drives to school. I miss our inside jokes. I really just miss seeing her every day.
I remember saying awhile back that I was going to start having firsts again. That I was going to start cherishing every moment that I'm given. I have been. I'm more appreciative of everything I have now than I think I ever was. But sometimes that nostalgia hits and I wish I could go back and appreciate it all even more. I was one lucky girl. I'm still one lucky girl. I have amazing friends, awesome new friends, family who loves me, the greatest boyfriend in the world, and the ability to look back on the past and fully appreciate everything I've been through.
I may not be fully prepared to grow up yet, but when you think about it, is anyone? All I know is that I'm going to make the most of my future, and never take one moment for granted. I can look back and remember, laugh, and love, but I will not get lost in those memories. Looking forward can be scary, intimidating, but it's always exciting.
Take a look. Take a leap. There's my future...
Scary, isn't it?
Where did my childhood go? Where did that time of innocence, sunshine, and freedom go? More importantly, when did it go? Whenever it went, I missed my goodbye.
It's funny how a single song can bring back so much. How listening to Big & Rich will always remind me of Erin and our crazy adventures at the beach. Where the wind would whip through our hair as we drove down the highway, flip flops on, sunglasses protecting our eyes, and that inevitable smell of summer (and sometimes chickens) would fill the car. That trip to the beach was always one of the things that would get me through the school year. It was our "bonding" time haha, where we'd get to just be silly, she'd get to run around naked, and all of our worries would stay behind, for just one week.
I miss the summer. I miss how...nothing was right, but everything was right at the same time. Michelle and I had our passive aggressive fight haha, and I missed that girl, every day, but for every time I'd get down about it, I'd have Drew to lift me back up and remind me that if we really were best friends, things would all work themselves out in the end. And look at that, they did. I love you girly.
I miss driving through the country with Erin, blasting country music, peeing in fields, discovering Jimmie Cone, and just talking through everything. Talking through our fears, our doubts, and laughing endlessly about it all.
I miss having movie nights with Cathy. I miss seeing her smile, laugh, play, dance, cook, eat, and make fun of me haha. I miss our "memory" days, when we'd just get out all of our old games, and play, talk, and be sisters. I miss our drives to school. I miss our inside jokes. I really just miss seeing her every day.
I remember saying awhile back that I was going to start having firsts again. That I was going to start cherishing every moment that I'm given. I have been. I'm more appreciative of everything I have now than I think I ever was. But sometimes that nostalgia hits and I wish I could go back and appreciate it all even more. I was one lucky girl. I'm still one lucky girl. I have amazing friends, awesome new friends, family who loves me, the greatest boyfriend in the world, and the ability to look back on the past and fully appreciate everything I've been through.
I may not be fully prepared to grow up yet, but when you think about it, is anyone? All I know is that I'm going to make the most of my future, and never take one moment for granted. I can look back and remember, laugh, and love, but I will not get lost in those memories. Looking forward can be scary, intimidating, but it's always exciting.
Take a look. Take a leap. There's my future...